Floater
My bestfriend went back to Taiwan this morning. It's my off and I've nothing to do. I don't feel well at all. So I went fitting the recycled wedding attire (I've used it twice for some friends' weddings) I'd be using for my brother's civil wedding this saturday. I've gained weight. 3 years of working earned me 10 more pounds. After convincing myself that yes, I can still pull it off, I found myself pounding on the keyboard, tuned in to NU107 after a loooong time, and listening to the rain falling outside and to my bf reporting the happenings in Edsa.
So what's been happening to me? Floating that's what. No, I'm not taking anything. I just feel like the hours are passing me by and I'm not doing anything at all. Sometimes I want time to stop. Oftentimes I want time to go back. Maybe back to 10 years ago when things were simpler.
The days are going fast. Sometimes I don't wanna leave, sometimes I can't wait to leave. Am I a mess? I dunno. I kinda feel like I am. I've lost my direction. I don't know where to go.
So what's been happening to me? Floating that's what. No, I'm not taking anything. I just feel like the hours are passing me by and I'm not doing anything at all. Sometimes I want time to stop. Oftentimes I want time to go back. Maybe back to 10 years ago when things were simpler.
The days are going fast. Sometimes I don't wanna leave, sometimes I can't wait to leave. Am I a mess? I dunno. I kinda feel like I am. I've lost my direction. I don't know where to go.