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Title: Once
Author: raingoddess2040
Character(s): Jacob Black, mentions of Edward Cullen, Bella Swan, Wolf Pack
Pairing(s): Jakeward (one-sided?)
Fandom(s): Twilight
Rating: FRT
Warning(s): semi-canon, slash, angst, suicidal thoughts, implied suicide
Spoiler(s): New Moon mostly
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything but the plot. I can’t afford anything else.
A/N: Fic forstarrycreations for Twilight Uncanon Drabble-a-thon
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I loved her, once. And I hated him.
It was always him in her eyes, in her heart, in her head. I couldn't understand. I didn't want to. How could you love someone who left you? How could she love someone like that?
Why couldn't she love me?
Then she left me, for him. She used me, for him. She loved me, for him. It was all about him, in every single way. To forget him, to remember him, to get closer to him. She said I was her sun, but I don't see how I could be eclipsed by the moon. I wasn't worth her real love, I guess.
I was just the middle man.
Then he came back, with her. And I showed up at her house, ready to try and make her hurt in some small way because of what she'd done. But it seemed as is fate decided to be even more of a bitch, because I looked to him and he was all I saw.
I wanted to be blind.
There were days and nights of agony I can't describe until I was dragged to his front door. My beloved pack betrayed me, but only with my best interests at heart. He stood there looking down at me where they left me on the grass and his eyes were unreadable, unfortunately, his lips weren't.
He'd never love me.
So, now I'm here at the cliff where she jumped to see him and I think it's ironic that I'm here for the same thing. Except, I know I won't see him smiling at me, or telling me to stay out of danger if I stay in this world of pain. There won't be anyone to save me.
And maybe I don't wanna be saved.
They say drowning is the best way to die. You simply fall to sleep once the water gets far enough inside. The water is freezing, but I feel so warm. It reminds me of my mom's hugs. They remind me of my dad and all the people who will miss me. All but the people that - the person that - the only one that matters.
I love you, Edward Cullen. Goodbye.
I loved her, once, and hated you.
Author: raingoddess2040
Character(s): Jacob Black, mentions of Edward Cullen, Bella Swan, Wolf Pack
Pairing(s): Jakeward (one-sided?)
Fandom(s): Twilight
Rating: FRT
Warning(s): semi-canon, slash, angst, suicidal thoughts, implied suicide
Spoiler(s): New Moon mostly
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything but the plot. I can’t afford anything else.
A/N: Fic forstarrycreations for Twilight Uncanon Drabble-a-thon
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I loved her, once. And I hated him.
It was always him in her eyes, in her heart, in her head. I couldn't understand. I didn't want to. How could you love someone who left you? How could she love someone like that?
Why couldn't she love me?
Then she left me, for him. She used me, for him. She loved me, for him. It was all about him, in every single way. To forget him, to remember him, to get closer to him. She said I was her sun, but I don't see how I could be eclipsed by the moon. I wasn't worth her real love, I guess.
I was just the middle man.
Then he came back, with her. And I showed up at her house, ready to try and make her hurt in some small way because of what she'd done. But it seemed as is fate decided to be even more of a bitch, because I looked to him and he was all I saw.
I wanted to be blind.
There were days and nights of agony I can't describe until I was dragged to his front door. My beloved pack betrayed me, but only with my best interests at heart. He stood there looking down at me where they left me on the grass and his eyes were unreadable, unfortunately, his lips weren't.
He'd never love me.
So, now I'm here at the cliff where she jumped to see him and I think it's ironic that I'm here for the same thing. Except, I know I won't see him smiling at me, or telling me to stay out of danger if I stay in this world of pain. There won't be anyone to save me.
And maybe I don't wanna be saved.
They say drowning is the best way to die. You simply fall to sleep once the water gets far enough inside. The water is freezing, but I feel so warm. It reminds me of my mom's hugs. They remind me of my dad and all the people who will miss me. All but the people that - the person that - the only one that matters.
I love you, Edward Cullen. Goodbye.
I loved her, once, and hated you.