update
Visiting Richmond was fun. It was good to see Kathleen again before she moves. She and Jeff are cute together =) I've been having a lot of moments lately where I really feel like I'm ready to be in a serious relationship that may lead to marriage. I just feel really tired of being alone and having no one to share my day with except my parents and occasional friends. But then I really think about it, and part of me feels like I really just want someone to entertain me. Does that make sense? It sounds selfish and off.
Dr. West was creepier than ever. He insists that I call him Chuck, but it's too weird for me. I settled for Charley. His mother isn't doing well, he moved her to Richmond and she is pissed at him and he's trying to spend a lot of time with her. It's wearing him down. He talked about her a lot, and I just tried to be sympathetic. I never know what to say to him about her...I can never say anything that sounds right, and so I just sit there feeling awkward. I feel like it's therapy session, except I'm the worst shrink ever. We watched my recital, and he said he was was proud of me and I'm a different player, but there were moments when I felt that he was less than impressed, and part of me felt like I let him down. Sometimes I just can't tell what he is really thinking.
In other new, gym stuff is going well. I've found that I'm starting to really get addicted to working out, it makes me feel so good! I think I've gained some serious muscle in the past year or so, and that's encouraging =) I really want to lose weight, but it also is satisfying just to feel the way I do after working out and knowing that I am in the best shape I've been in in a while (at least stamina-wise).
Tomorrow we have family from Maine visiting...should be fun. I get to cook!
Dr. West was creepier than ever. He insists that I call him Chuck, but it's too weird for me. I settled for Charley. His mother isn't doing well, he moved her to Richmond and she is pissed at him and he's trying to spend a lot of time with her. It's wearing him down. He talked about her a lot, and I just tried to be sympathetic. I never know what to say to him about her...I can never say anything that sounds right, and so I just sit there feeling awkward. I feel like it's therapy session, except I'm the worst shrink ever. We watched my recital, and he said he was was proud of me and I'm a different player, but there were moments when I felt that he was less than impressed, and part of me felt like I let him down. Sometimes I just can't tell what he is really thinking.
In other new, gym stuff is going well. I've found that I'm starting to really get addicted to working out, it makes me feel so good! I think I've gained some serious muscle in the past year or so, and that's encouraging =) I really want to lose weight, but it also is satisfying just to feel the way I do after working out and knowing that I am in the best shape I've been in in a while (at least stamina-wise).
Tomorrow we have family from Maine visiting...should be fun. I get to cook!