It's a wonderful life
I've thought for many years that people don't change. I'm starting to revise that thought though. When I examine myself I find that the person I was even a single year ago seems so different to me. The relocation from CoMo to Cali served as more then just a physical move it really became a vehicle for change of self. I was a complete disaster when I came out here. I felt as though my life had been a constinuous breakdown leaving me drained, raw and lost. I've realized that there is something to be said for starting over. The life you start new and the people you meet don't hold opinions that are tainted by who you have been or the choices you have made. In their eyes from that first meeting you are a fresh slate. It's a chance to be anyone you want from hello onwards. The past rarely invades upon me here and I'm very grateful for it. There are times though I feel that people's opinions of me are overly idealistic. Upon reflection I realize that it isn't in fact idealistic so much as that is who I have worked to become. I sometimes feel jaded by the choices I've made that have produced the loss of friends or the pain of others, whether enemy or friend. The past remains ever as it is though and nothing done now can change those things. The only thing to be done is to live the very best we can from this very moment on. I've been so very blessed with the amazing friends out there who are always there for me at any time Ginger, Kira, Jacqui to name a few. As I continue to make my life out here I've met some fantastic unique individuals like my boss Wendover, her sister Amy, and funny man Neil. Even though financially living out here is far from easy, I look around and think to myself what a wonderful life it is.