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Well me and Ryan broke up tonight because I found out he had phone sex with this girl.. and like he told her he would cheat on me with her... So yea.. we are truefully done.. For now anyway.. He will have to earn me back.. Maybe he will find someone else who will be everything he wants- maybe he will find whatever it is he wants out of a relationship... He keeps saying I didn't put my all into the relationship and well I did.. I fell in love with him and tried to love him with my all and that wasn't enough he had to do those things.
I dont know what Im going to do.. I just cant stop myself from feelings like a failure to myself.. I feel like I let myself down, because I opened up and let myself get hurt. I did it to myself.. I dont know why I cant seem to be good enough for anyone..
I just hate him... I hate the fact that I love him.. That I cant seem to think about anything but him.. and thats why it hurts so bad.
I give up on caring.. I give up..
I dont know what Im going to do.. I just cant stop myself from feelings like a failure to myself.. I feel like I let myself down, because I opened up and let myself get hurt. I did it to myself.. I dont know why I cant seem to be good enough for anyone..
I just hate him... I hate the fact that I love him.. That I cant seem to think about anything but him.. and thats why it hurts so bad.
I give up on caring.. I give up..