off to old habits.
Well ya know my mom promised to not freak out on me, or not to just blow up and go nuts.. I knew it wouldnt last long and it last 2 days this time wow.. Im suprised gosh I cant stand her.. she pisses me off so much.
Anyways monday I meet with the principal and find out if I have been withdrawn or not. Quite frankly I hope I do because I would love to get a job and then go to scc and get my diploma there.. its not that big of a deal.. I need to do it for myself because I seem to be falling into old habits of the past and its because I hate school. I hate being around big groups of people it freaks me out.. Im depressed and sad and mad and happy all at the same time.. I want my life to get better I want to feel like Im special.. I want to do things for myself.. I want to live my life.. I want people to understand the reason why I cant take all this stuff at once.. I want to have a best friend.. I want to be happy.. I want to get married. I want to just have things go my way. I want to cry and run away. I want to stay and work things out. LOL I want a lot of things and things just aren't going my way. They never have and probably wont ever so why expect something to change.. ahh
I need to write a poem... I DONT KNOW WHERE TO START. Haven't written one in almost forever. I want to draw.. I want to read my book.. I want to eat even though anything I do makes me sick.
Ahhh life.
Oh we watched little black book last night.... it was interesting I didnt really think it was a good movie, just funny because the plot was dumb.. I would scale it in a one to ten.. 4 yes a 4 its got a few good points in it.
Umm hmm well I want to see that movie cursed.. anyone seen it yet? Was it good? Was it scary?
mwah
xoxoxo
Brittany
Anyways monday I meet with the principal and find out if I have been withdrawn or not. Quite frankly I hope I do because I would love to get a job and then go to scc and get my diploma there.. its not that big of a deal.. I need to do it for myself because I seem to be falling into old habits of the past and its because I hate school. I hate being around big groups of people it freaks me out.. Im depressed and sad and mad and happy all at the same time.. I want my life to get better I want to feel like Im special.. I want to do things for myself.. I want to live my life.. I want people to understand the reason why I cant take all this stuff at once.. I want to have a best friend.. I want to be happy.. I want to get married. I want to just have things go my way. I want to cry and run away. I want to stay and work things out. LOL I want a lot of things and things just aren't going my way. They never have and probably wont ever so why expect something to change.. ahh
I need to write a poem... I DONT KNOW WHERE TO START. Haven't written one in almost forever. I want to draw.. I want to read my book.. I want to eat even though anything I do makes me sick.
Ahhh life.
Oh we watched little black book last night.... it was interesting I didnt really think it was a good movie, just funny because the plot was dumb.. I would scale it in a one to ten.. 4 yes a 4 its got a few good points in it.
Umm hmm well I want to see that movie cursed.. anyone seen it yet? Was it good? Was it scary?
mwah
xoxoxo
Brittany