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[rainbowchipmunk]

last night was one of those nights. i laid awake realizing how abstract of an idea we are. well, not we, but existance. how did it all begin? how is it that we exist? why?? there's no definate beginning. but there must have been. and yet... there couldn't have been. i feel suddenly disconnected, unreal, like everything around me is a lie

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[macii]

One day lightning stuck a puddel of mud, and bacteria was born and eventually evolved into us... Iv come to except that explenation.

[blackcloudscene]

i don't like to think of the higher being or god as like, an actual entity. I like to think of it just as.. like.. the whole universe being one big ball of light representing energy, with infinate numbers of different kinds of individual energies filling it up. I guess it could sorta be like a big person or apart of an entity or something, but i think its more a mix of ordered chaos; everything holding its own distinct property in a big scheme of things, but always having an inner connection with everything else.

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[blackcloudscene]

sort of like the power(s) being impersonal & inside of everyone but also being the entire universe... Its a scientific fact that energy cannot be created or destroyed; it can only be transformed. Where the energy very 1st came from, i'm not sure, but all that seems to happen in history is things changing. I too feel incapable of grasping the idea of effect without cause, but that's kind of what it all is. We just don't know the very original cause, and considering each effect causes something else to happen, maybe its just always been that way....
I don't know if that makes any sense though. Theres always a question or a contradiction that can be found in thinking about shit like this. Its really nerveracking.