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Life can come at you fast. I mean one day you can be fine taking care of your family and the next day well you’re in so much pain you have to visit the hospital and they keep you there for 1 full week. That’s what happened to my mom this passed week, it was really hard on all of us, my dad and my sister. We just wanted her home. She’s family back home, and she is doing well. My mom has never been away from us more than 2 or 3 days tops so it was very hard to get things done, because my schedule consisted of waking up going to the hospital, going to school, coming back to the hospital, *depending if I had work* go to work, then sneak back into the hospital so I could say goodnight. Then just about 10 30ish at night head home, do some homework that needed to be sent via internet, sleep wake up and start all over again. That drained me. My dad and sister had a similar hospital / work / school schedule as well. But the point is that she is well and at home. YAY! And we welcomed her home with loving arms ready to take her role and take care of her.
I don’t think I’m truly happy right now in my life. I’m lying about a lot of things right now, to my self and to others. I really don’t feel like I should tell every one what I’m feeling right now, even though if I did it would take a big lift off my shoulders. But now isn’t the time to tell every one who cares for me what is really going on. My sister is applying to colleges all over America, my dad just started to work at a new company where is no longer just a “worker” he is some who has a lot of responsibility and has a very good possition, my mom just came out of the hospital. Aj now he is starting a new job, lots of pressure with school, and his new job. He is actually taking a work related flight out to D.C. on a business trip (he is excited about it).
I tried to tell Aj what was going on, but then he rejected the whole idea. Made me feel horrible about my self. But I understand that he is under a lot of pressure and in reality he and I do not need this stress right now. In any case if he would I agree on what I was telling him…then what? After that what would happen? I don’t know, nor do I think I want to know.
I don’t think I’m truly happy right now in my life. I’m lying about a lot of things right now, to my self and to others. I really don’t feel like I should tell every one what I’m feeling right now, even though if I did it would take a big lift off my shoulders. But now isn’t the time to tell every one who cares for me what is really going on. My sister is applying to colleges all over America, my dad just started to work at a new company where is no longer just a “worker” he is some who has a lot of responsibility and has a very good possition, my mom just came out of the hospital. Aj now he is starting a new job, lots of pressure with school, and his new job. He is actually taking a work related flight out to D.C. on a business trip (he is excited about it).
I tried to tell Aj what was going on, but then he rejected the whole idea. Made me feel horrible about my self. But I understand that he is under a lot of pressure and in reality he and I do not need this stress right now. In any case if he would I agree on what I was telling him…then what? After that what would happen? I don’t know, nor do I think I want to know.