when will it all end?

[rainbow_kissed]

not last night but the night before i was at josh's house all night
just us two
except for mark for about an hour.

josh was touching all over me
i just sat there.

last night
went to joshs
he was fine, then we smoked
he called liz
he kept hushing me.

when he got off
i said it was fucked that he still wanted to chill with me
but hes going to hide it from liz
ruined his high.

then i slept.
woke up.
he went up stairs to use the phone
i assume.
because he said he was going to call liz in a few hours and tell her i was there.

so hes upstairs.
and liz calls me all upset asking if im at joshs.
hung up.
im not dealing with that bullshit.

so. what i assume is that josh fucking ran his mouth
and said some bullshit,
which is why had to call her upstairs
instead of in his room like always.

fuck all of this.
now i remember why i dont have friends.

everyone is cut.