Riddle me this
I keep thinking about how bad I want to seem grown up to other people. How I want to seem mature, and smart. I want to seem like I never get a tinge of jealousy, or a teensy bit mad... or even a bit unsure. I keep thinking about the allie thing. and how this whole thing is like a damn war. It's like theres not a doubt in anyones mind about what side I am on in this thing.. but what side is everyone else on.. Theres always more than one side.. and everyone always chooses one wether they do it consciously or not.. I feel like I've created more bad than good. I am in a relationship, one that I enjoy a lot.. but honestly was it such a good thing to ruin Allie and Jeanines friendship.. What side am I on.. Honestly I don't even know. I feel bad for allie.. and maybe I should maybe I shouldn't. I've tried to stay on my side in this one.. Ya know? Usually when your in a fight your on your own side.. I am sort of feeling like I'm an ass who ruins friendships.. Have I created enough good to outweigh the bad.. Is this a good thing? Is Karma real? Is it going to put my teeth on the curb of life. and stomp on my head? There are too many questions to ask.. I always ask myself what would I do in that situation? Casey and her jordan situation.. What would I do? I don't even know.. My situations currently.. Theres not a lot to do.. I always wonder what other people are thinking.. "If I could just crawl into your mind for a second and read your thoughts that would be great" That never happens..
mm too many questions
mm too many questions