poo on life sometimes.
i need to go to bed. tomorrow is like the all time deciding day of my college career and physical health so far in my life of 21 years. haha. i have doctors appointment at 9am for an hour to see if i need surgery again. and theeeen basically i have to decide if i want to go through with it and if i do then i cant go to london probably...and if i dont do the surgery till summer then I have to immediately send my money there tomorrow morning to save me place there and then leave in like 3 1/2 weeks. wow. that is all so overwhelming.
sometimes i get really down lately about my life...maybe cuz sometimes i get so motivated but there is a lot i cant do because of my limited resources. I just want to start something. BRODYDEAN for one. I KNOW that that will be huge, but we have to work at it. I think on saturday I am going to hunt down the house where the designers for trovata live and try and talk to them...see if i can intern with them or something. I would literally be their coffee bitch. I just want to see how it all works. I think I would almost pay them to let me haha.
Ok i gotta go. i cant wait for the beach on saturday though. and riding bikes tomorrow. and tennis tomorrow. and decisions..well i could wait for those...those kinda suck. poo on them. bye.
i need answers. what do you all think i should do. and by you all, i guess i mean lauren and kimmy and whoever else reads this shat.
sometimes i get really down lately about my life...maybe cuz sometimes i get so motivated but there is a lot i cant do because of my limited resources. I just want to start something. BRODYDEAN for one. I KNOW that that will be huge, but we have to work at it. I think on saturday I am going to hunt down the house where the designers for trovata live and try and talk to them...see if i can intern with them or something. I would literally be their coffee bitch. I just want to see how it all works. I think I would almost pay them to let me haha.
Ok i gotta go. i cant wait for the beach on saturday though. and riding bikes tomorrow. and tennis tomorrow. and decisions..well i could wait for those...those kinda suck. poo on them. bye.
i need answers. what do you all think i should do. and by you all, i guess i mean lauren and kimmy and whoever else reads this shat.