Sunshine
It's good to know that when you break down you have people there willing to help pick yourself up again. Because I broke down today. Not the ranting, raving, I'm-so-fucking-confused/pissed/stressed breaking down, but the I sat in my car for ten minutes and bawled and haven't been able to stop kind of breaking down. I got some really terrible news today. To most people is probably wouldn't have been that bad, but to overly stressed me it was the huge rotten cherry on top of the disgustingly sweet bowl of chocolate ice-cream. I held it together long enough to get away from the people who crushed me into the floor and then I lost it. And I've been losing it ever since. My stress level is already twenty miles past the roof and I just did not need that. My mom has been worrying a Tornado (sorry, bad example) over me all day. On top of the truly awful news, I had my last viola lesson and a history quiz that I was sure I was going to fail. Luckily for me I have the best viola teacher in the world, and he rescheduled my lesson so that I could have some much needed calm down/study time before my Quiz of Doom. And then my wonderful friend JJ gave me ten thousand hugs and told me that if I needed a coffeee/chill break this evening that she was free. And my fabulous writing teacher Ann gave me a hug and told me that whatever those people thought I'd done that they were wrong. I know, as a writer, that that was a truly gargantuan amount of adjectives (shown once again by this sentence) but I needed to express how awesome the people around me are. Half the time I feel as if no one really cares, but I was proven wrong today. And because of that I think my current need to cry until I can't cry anymore is going away.
p.s. sorry for not using paragraphs, but if you think about it, it's really all one topic....
p.s. sorry for not using paragraphs, but if you think about it, it's really all one topic....