Ahh yes

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Ugh... I feel like shit right now. I haven't been to the gym in a week, and I've been eating tons of shit all week. I hate feeling like a nasty ass slob. Ok.. I don't like to whine, but here I go. So if you gotta problem with that, then exit out now. It's hard to motivate yourself to exercise and eat right when you feel like shit emotionally and just wanna lay around and sleep all day. I've been feeling kinda depressed the last few weeks, and after I put up with stupid ass people all day in school, I just wanna come home and relax... not go workout when I already have no energy. Is that so much to ask for? Why do I have to put up with so much more shit than alot of people do? I hate my classes, half of them I have no1 to talk to. The rest are boring and stupid. And my once favorite teacher has been replaced by Mr. Mantis, which blows ass. He's so annoying. Valentine's day is almost here, and it kinda sucks. I don't care that much, but it woulda been nice for just once to have a boyfriend or atleast something. But yeah... I don't think I'm allowed to get what I want or something. I told my mom last night that I think I need therapy or something, and she was like "shh.... no you don't" I felt so helpless I wanted to cry. Wtf am I supposed to do when I don't even wanna wake up in the morning? I have like no1 to talk to, I just keep thinking about this shit 2 myself over and over. I need some1 to talk to that isn't bias... but according to my mom, I'm perfectly normal! LOL... And they all bitch about me being mean and having a "black heart". Maybe if I got some fucking help I would be better... But no.. lets make me suffer, which also makes me treat them worse. That makes more sense. This is fuckin retarded. I can't really think of anything that I look forward to anymore. Everything either pisses me off, and the stuff that I actually do enjoy is wrong. I just wish I could move and start over. I need to fuckin get away from AP and all the assholes that make up the school. People are so fuckin stupid its ridiculous. O.. I'll leave you with this.DisorderRatingParanoid:ModerateSchizoid:HighSchizotypal:ModerateAntisocial:LowBorderline:ModerateHistrionic:ModerateNarcissistic:ModerateAvoidant:HighDependent:HighObsessive-Compulsive:High
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