Drama = my job
Grrrr.... Another long and drama filled day at work. So when is the drama gonna end?? of course never but it feels good to know that Caity is working in unit 288 for a couple of weeks. Ok so whose Caity??? She is my brother Joey's girlfriend and also my roommate. About this time last year we were like best friends. How come it always seems like when someone meets me for the first time they want to spend an unbelievable large amount of time with me and then somehow over time we seem to grow apart. So maybe it is my fault because I push everyone away if it seems like we are to getting to be close. Why am I always scard of getting hurt?
Anyways back to Caity- So we used to work at Ground Round together and three week into learning the tricks of the trade I quit. During that time I was also working at BK. (I still do) I convinced her to come work with me and I helped her become a shift supervisor. Then my brother went to Watertown NY and she was extremely lonely. So we became even closer. Then I started going out with Kristen and she got extremely jealous. She did everything to break us up. During this relationship of self discovery I found out that I do not want to be with a girl ever again so I ended it anyways. After that we went back to spending a great deal of time together.
Then I ended up hooking up with Lou. Boy was she hating it. They both fought for every free moment I had. (I can't lie I liked it) In the end we did alot stuff all together and she became good friends with him. Alittle too good for comfort. In the recent past, so good that she slept with him. This killed me and honestly is something that is still a daily struggle when I see them together, but I am working on it. I want to be the better person.
But it has become alot hardier lately. Caity had a crush on this guy named Dale. He is 28, has a daughter, and has unbelievable eyes. The first time she brought him home, Dale and I kinda hit it off and he ended up spending the night in my room. (on the floor) Caity was pissed and I enjoyed it entirely. He admitted that he didn't want to be with her and that he really liked me. Somehow I turned bitch mode on. I asked him to do me a very mean favor and tell Lou that he slept with me. He did it and said lou's face couldn't have fell any further to the ground that quick. I thought it was funny. I forgot to mention that Dale works with Caity, Lou and Me.
So what have I been doing when Lou and Dale are near each other?? I flirt excessively with Dale. Today we all worked together again and I must admit that we were bad. I know Lou heard alot of it and it is all my fault because that made him really depressed. Dale doesn't know that Lou was so close to my heart and if he knew how much of a bitch I was about Lou sleeping with Dawn (u guessed it another coworker) I don't think that he would talk to me. I feel really bad about the situation and I dread going into work tommorrow and having to work with the two guys.
I don't know why I let Lou make me this crazy. I don't even know when I started caring about him and Dale is such a good guy. I hate that I have envolved him into this green eye envy.
So now Caity has been really pissed at me and I find it funny. I keep telling myself that it was ok to take Dale from her. She is the one that toke Lou from me, so she inflicted upon herself right???
This reasoning??? It is bad and so unlike me. (stop laughing) I don't want to have this attitude and it makes me so unsure about how I can fix everything. I want Caity and me to be ok and not two faced. I want Lou and me to be good friends, and I wish that he would be open and honest with me. I like Dale and I wouldn't mind getting to know him better but my heart might not ever be there for the right reasons. So I know nothing could work out with him.
Meanwhile since I am their boss and I slept with Lou and I started the rumor that I slept with Dale bad things might be in store for me. Yet I am glued and wish once more that I had something more in my life. Or maybe someone more. But that hasn't existed yet and day by day I am slowly giving up..... When will it be all over with???
Anyways back to Caity- So we used to work at Ground Round together and three week into learning the tricks of the trade I quit. During that time I was also working at BK. (I still do) I convinced her to come work with me and I helped her become a shift supervisor. Then my brother went to Watertown NY and she was extremely lonely. So we became even closer. Then I started going out with Kristen and she got extremely jealous. She did everything to break us up. During this relationship of self discovery I found out that I do not want to be with a girl ever again so I ended it anyways. After that we went back to spending a great deal of time together.
Then I ended up hooking up with Lou. Boy was she hating it. They both fought for every free moment I had. (I can't lie I liked it) In the end we did alot stuff all together and she became good friends with him. Alittle too good for comfort. In the recent past, so good that she slept with him. This killed me and honestly is something that is still a daily struggle when I see them together, but I am working on it. I want to be the better person.
But it has become alot hardier lately. Caity had a crush on this guy named Dale. He is 28, has a daughter, and has unbelievable eyes. The first time she brought him home, Dale and I kinda hit it off and he ended up spending the night in my room. (on the floor) Caity was pissed and I enjoyed it entirely. He admitted that he didn't want to be with her and that he really liked me. Somehow I turned bitch mode on. I asked him to do me a very mean favor and tell Lou that he slept with me. He did it and said lou's face couldn't have fell any further to the ground that quick. I thought it was funny. I forgot to mention that Dale works with Caity, Lou and Me.
So what have I been doing when Lou and Dale are near each other?? I flirt excessively with Dale. Today we all worked together again and I must admit that we were bad. I know Lou heard alot of it and it is all my fault because that made him really depressed. Dale doesn't know that Lou was so close to my heart and if he knew how much of a bitch I was about Lou sleeping with Dawn (u guessed it another coworker) I don't think that he would talk to me. I feel really bad about the situation and I dread going into work tommorrow and having to work with the two guys.
I don't know why I let Lou make me this crazy. I don't even know when I started caring about him and Dale is such a good guy. I hate that I have envolved him into this green eye envy.
So now Caity has been really pissed at me and I find it funny. I keep telling myself that it was ok to take Dale from her. She is the one that toke Lou from me, so she inflicted upon herself right???
This reasoning??? It is bad and so unlike me. (stop laughing) I don't want to have this attitude and it makes me so unsure about how I can fix everything. I want Caity and me to be ok and not two faced. I want Lou and me to be good friends, and I wish that he would be open and honest with me. I like Dale and I wouldn't mind getting to know him better but my heart might not ever be there for the right reasons. So I know nothing could work out with him.
Meanwhile since I am their boss and I slept with Lou and I started the rumor that I slept with Dale bad things might be in store for me. Yet I am glued and wish once more that I had something more in my life. Or maybe someone more. But that hasn't existed yet and day by day I am slowly giving up..... When will it be all over with???