Personality redux

[raidingparty]

Wow! Yesterday’s post spawned way more discussion than I expected.Pollen count has passed 4000. Not sick yet, still waiting for Dragonball posts.I forgot about the Easter cake, that makes four.The disagreements I mentioned usually stick with me so much because either they strike at my core beliefs (as the critique did about my relative desirability

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[sentientjello]

That secretly-failing-at-being-a-grown-up feeling...I FEEL that. My hypothesis: you're only in your 30s (I forget your exact age). The majority of your memory is made up of being a child. So, 18/30 years, or 60% (maybe more if we include college, too. 22/30 or 73%) of your memories are about not being a grown up. Since you are, in large part, the sum of your memories, how could you feel like an adult? Maybe at some point when we're both over 50 and our adult memories outnumber our childhood ones, we'll feel like grown ups. Or at least, we won't remember not-feeling like grown ups because we're getting too old to remember everything anymore. ;)

Also...do you think you are troubled by attachments/emotions because they're somehow internally destabilizing to you (which would seem more schizoid) or because they're tiring? I identify somewhat with that article...except that I've always thought of myself as an introvert. I like being friends with other people...it just wears me out until a certain point where I get comfortable enough with someone. But often, I think I come off as aloof or distant because my brain needs nappy times when other people's brains are still on full tilt...and so I leave. Thus, friends happen slowly. My bestest, closest friends are still my friends from highschool...and I only just achieved non-mental-exhaustion with them like, a couple of years ago. I have a lot of people that I'm friendly with...but I make friends slowly. Because I get sleepy. No, seriously. But not because I'm cold or...motivated by some kind of internal-mental-life-self-preservation. All of this is why I have a dog, btw. You don't have to spend a lot of energy forging an emotional rapport with a dog, and I find it equally rewarding as a human emotional relationship. Could you be an introvert? Do you need more pets?

[sentientjello]

Also, I think your list of qualities is reasonable. Not to be weird and talk about pets again, but...if you ever want to have pets, maybe add that too. "Likes animals"

[raidingparty]

I don't think social stuff wears me out quickly. I'm often the first and last at parties. Although there is something to that - I tend to be very goal-oriented in such situations, focusing on the dance or the game or whatever's right in front of me, rather than seeking out small talk.
And the rare times I organize outings, it's "Invite ALL THE PEOPLES". But that's rare. That's the other facet of it; I don't do much time management, and interacting with people (outside of work) now takes intention.
(One of the secret benefits of DMing - it's already agreed-upon so I don't have to invite people or change my schedule for it, and people just show up at my house.)