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Every day I felt like I needed to run from you. I needed to run from love and the fact that I was scared. My insecurities. I was frighten each day thinking how you can just run off and be with someone else. I am sorry that I left or even more went and found another.
I don’t want to make the same mistake of running away like I did. I don’t want to lose someone I love deeply like I did. If I lose Adela, I am basically losing myself. One thing about me is that I could say things and not mean it. Meaning, example “ baby, you and I weren’t meant for each other, you and I may have difficulties but if we are together we can accomplish many things in life”. Oh man, I am talker. However, I am not like that with Adela. I tell her the truth. I cannot hide anything from her. I don’t understand, she just takes control over me. I may have told girls, yeah you and I will be together forever and they believe of course, fuck I was stupid. I hurt many and even caused them deep distress. But I am grown up from that. I don’t want to run anymore. I am tired. I want a family. My family is all I want, that is what will make me happy.
*** I am sorry for hurting you the way I did. I am sorry that we fell in love and I ended up being dumb and leaving and not saying anything to you. Not even a simple good bye. I did deeply love you and truly did want to marry you. It just that I am afraid of comment. I was. Good-bye you. Maybe one we will meet up. Maybe. *****
I don’t want to make the same mistake of running away like I did. I don’t want to lose someone I love deeply like I did. If I lose Adela, I am basically losing myself. One thing about me is that I could say things and not mean it. Meaning, example “ baby, you and I weren’t meant for each other, you and I may have difficulties but if we are together we can accomplish many things in life”. Oh man, I am talker. However, I am not like that with Adela. I tell her the truth. I cannot hide anything from her. I don’t understand, she just takes control over me. I may have told girls, yeah you and I will be together forever and they believe of course, fuck I was stupid. I hurt many and even caused them deep distress. But I am grown up from that. I don’t want to run anymore. I am tired. I want a family. My family is all I want, that is what will make me happy.
*** I am sorry for hurting you the way I did. I am sorry that we fell in love and I ended up being dumb and leaving and not saying anything to you. Not even a simple good bye. I did deeply love you and truly did want to marry you. It just that I am afraid of comment. I was. Good-bye you. Maybe one we will meet up. Maybe. *****