Freak Out Moment
Here's so my stupid freak out moment. Last night he went out, I knew he was drinking with friends no big deal. But he text me something weird and then did text or call the rest of the night, which is a little unusal b/c he usually will call or text me to let me know he's home... I know I'm looking into it too much and I really have no place to worry or be upset. See this is the bad side of our "unexplained understanding" we've said we're together but we won't call each other boyfriend and girlfriend, which is fine b/c I'm not ready to call him that. But b/c things aren't spelt out it kind of leaves me in this weird what are we spot? Do I have any right to be upset or jealous? No...ish? Lol yet he's told me he won't talk to any other girls and doesn't want to and I've said the same thing. But then he's said stuff like we're just "haning out" and we'll see if were still "hanging out" in the future... sometimes it's like he likes me a lot then others he's way more reserved but I know that's how he is. Again I'm looking into this too much but this is what I get. This is what I get for investing any kind of feelings or emotions into anyone. I should have never opened myself up even the little bit that I did. So I guess this is a good thing, another slap in the face that I needed to remind myself not to open myself to anyone anymore. It's not like we're together we aren't so this doesn't matter. He can do whatever he wants with whoever I have no say.