he's just not that into you.
well, i'm doing a little better from my last entry. i think that i was just really stressed out and my anxiety problems have gotten really out of hand. i have health problems all at once and then i get freaked out thinking something is really wrong. i have been having this pain in my jaw and my throat and ears have been hurting, but i think i figured out what the problem is. my wisdom teeth. all this worrying and it's probably just that they're coming in all fucked up and probably hit a nerve or got infected. i always figure the worst thing possible is happening so that i'm not if it really does happen. fucked up, eh? my parents are annoyed cause i get them worried with this stuff too. they were leaving for florida last week so i decided to just drop everything and go with them. i told my work i have mono and also told my teachers that as well. i needed this vacation really bad. i'd been working like, every day and haven't taken a vacation in over a year. so yeah. probably wasn't a good idea to do this at the beginning of the school year but whatever. we went to orlando for about 4 days. went to magic kingdom, epcot, and mgm. it was fun. now we're in naples. on monday, we leave for miami. this trip has given me a lot of time to think. but not necessarily about bad things but more of how i can change things in my life for the better. i need to care about myself more and not let others put me down. i need to stop settling for crappy guys just to have someone around. the past couple guys have made me feel like shit and i just let it happen. i shouldn't have to feel bad for a guy paying for a date, or have to drive out to hang out with the guy all the time then realize he was just using me while he was either on a break with his gf or just cheating on her while she was away at school. that's so fucked up. i know that books like the subject title of this entry might be considered stupid to some people but it's helped me realize i could do better. there's a lot of other things i need to change, mostly my attitude towards things. i need to be more positive and not let what people do bother me. so yeah, this is what i've gotten to thinking about now and when i get home i'm going to put it all into action. well, i'm off to the pool now. i'll update this more later. peace out yo.