how do you sleep, how do you breathe?
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no part of my life is epic these few days. everything happens in a never ending cycle from day to day, & i must say i do feel really mentally exhuasted sometimes. but with renewed faith i'll surrender it all to You, no matter what shit happens. and we all know things like this happen.
this previous week has been quite a lousy week for me, honestly speaking. results are terrible, as usual. when will i ever learn? i got betrayed by the people that i thought i finally found my place in. but in the end i got stabbed in the back by the people i though accepted me for who i was. you know, whatever. thank you much
nector_thoughts , acacius & debbie for cheering me up on wednesday. i don't need shit from people who tell me things with double meaning you know. i can tell, i'm not stupid. you don't feel sorry the team ostracized me, nor do you really want me to play for you either. i get it you know.
day 4 since the day i've made up my mind to give him up. and you know how you feel like an utter joke, is that the moment you decide on giving something up, it comes up to you and rubs itself into your face, mocking you, tempting you? i swear acacius, i need you to help me. and so i shall, for myself. because i know i deserve not to get hurt anymore.
cell was really awesome on friday, and i cannot wait for the crestere good friday & tgif next week. it'll be epic, and i think that this is the break that i've been seeking God for for the last idk how many months. feels good to be back with the cell, with the network people and having fun together, leaving all my worries behind. i love being back in church! :D
by faith, i believe the coming week will be better (: