Moving without moving
Hip recovery took a big u-turn on Saturday when there was some internal bleeding and swelling in the joint. It's been a rough couple of days since and I've been on and off and anti-inflammatories. The PA said they were not going to have me do PT because they were too worried it would make things worse. They prescribed for me a short burst steroid pack that I need to clear with my psychiatrist before taking. I'm not certain that I will need it because I've switched to alleve and had a much better day today.
It's just rough to sleep when you can't get in a comfortable position and then have nothing to focus on but discomfort. :/
The PA also told me that the doctor found "significant pathology" in my hip and that they expected that I would have to have my hip replaced at the point of which I could not live with it anymore. She said they have done all that they can through arthroscopy and it's just a matter of doing the best that we can from here. That was a little stunning to hear. She called me back later in the day to specify that he found clear indications of Osteoarthritis in my hip and suspected my left hip is affected as well, but that it was definitely OA versus AS (this is very good news to me).
It's really good to know why I've had so much pain for so long, but frustrating at the same time. I'm tired of being a lump and where it seems like an envious position to be in; it's a little crazy making for me. Today was better because I was able to get up more and Eric is now home for the rest of the month. I expect things to go smoothly while we are in vacation mode and I have Eric's help.
The other big news from the PA is that it could take 6 to 9 months of flares or constant pain at this level before my hip calms down from the surgery. :( NO ONE PUT THAT IN THE TRAVEL BROCHURE! It's a good thing they didn't too because I'm not sure I would have seen the long-term gain so clearly.
Right now I'm just focusing on what is in front of me. I see the surgeon again in four weeks. I'm doing everything I can to re-cooperate and we will see how much help I need come January when Eric goes back to work. I'm definitely freaked, but I have it all in perspective.
I guess this means really shelving my over-emphasis on all things physical and accepting limitation.
Today I sketched my dad while Finn napped. It was the first that I've felt out of my head/my anxiety in a week. It was good to be in the zone.
This is good. This is life. I can deal. Moving on. Right?
It's just rough to sleep when you can't get in a comfortable position and then have nothing to focus on but discomfort. :/
The PA also told me that the doctor found "significant pathology" in my hip and that they expected that I would have to have my hip replaced at the point of which I could not live with it anymore. She said they have done all that they can through arthroscopy and it's just a matter of doing the best that we can from here. That was a little stunning to hear. She called me back later in the day to specify that he found clear indications of Osteoarthritis in my hip and suspected my left hip is affected as well, but that it was definitely OA versus AS (this is very good news to me).
It's really good to know why I've had so much pain for so long, but frustrating at the same time. I'm tired of being a lump and where it seems like an envious position to be in; it's a little crazy making for me. Today was better because I was able to get up more and Eric is now home for the rest of the month. I expect things to go smoothly while we are in vacation mode and I have Eric's help.
The other big news from the PA is that it could take 6 to 9 months of flares or constant pain at this level before my hip calms down from the surgery. :( NO ONE PUT THAT IN THE TRAVEL BROCHURE! It's a good thing they didn't too because I'm not sure I would have seen the long-term gain so clearly.
Right now I'm just focusing on what is in front of me. I see the surgeon again in four weeks. I'm doing everything I can to re-cooperate and we will see how much help I need come January when Eric goes back to work. I'm definitely freaked, but I have it all in perspective.
I guess this means really shelving my over-emphasis on all things physical and accepting limitation.
Today I sketched my dad while Finn napped. It was the first that I've felt out of my head/my anxiety in a week. It was good to be in the zone.
This is good. This is life. I can deal. Moving on. Right?