Mommy: Dancing around the House while Trying to Screw her Head on Straight
Dear Finn,
It's been an intense week for Mama and you could probably convince her to stand on her head if it would work out the kink in her shoulders and the tension in her brain.
This was your second week of preschool and my first week back at school for the year. Why did I think Developmental Pysch would be easier than my previous class? Temporary insanity apparently because I read 45 pages in three days and then wrote a paper and turned it all in before midnight last night. Oh and there is more to do before Friday... and then a test Monday... and a new paper due Wednesday and new reading starting tomorrow... and can you see now why mommy was awake until 2 am unable to sleep last night? Even after I finished all of my work, the ten minutes of "the Office" I watched with daddy just didn't cut the tension. In retrospect, I should have gotten out of bed and started dancing around with my headphones on... because that's what I did this morning and it made me feel so much better.
Oh yes, while you were at school today, I went to see my therapist and then I turned up Bjork's latest remix and I moved my body in all kinds of odd contortions. It felt good to have a minute where I just... didn't expect anything of myself. I expect way too much of myself. If I ever do this to you, you have my permission to slap me.
Today we went to the zoo with the famous Kaia- your beloved BFF of long-standing. You two are like two halves separated at birth that have suddenly been reunited. I think you ran the ENTIRE zoo loop together, pretending to be different animals, characters and seeking out babies in every direction. Of course, I was elated to spend time with the lovely Tabatha and Jaeda as well. You even got to ride the carousel TWICE since Kaia hadn't gotten a turn yet, but you made me stand next to Kaia's horse and well out of arm's reach of your saddle. On the way home we played, "I spy..." and you were THRILLED when you guessed the sky and were RIGHT. The sky IS blue and I had spied it (by the way, I must tell you that they found water on the Moon yesterday, crazy). Tonight you were feeling tired and fragile and you lost a privilege that you normally enjoy. We hung in there with your sadness despite your wanting the privilege back. I listened to your feelings, empathized and then asked what else we could do to make you feel better? You cried and said, "I don't know." So, I started talking to you using the stuffed penguin that we got you today and that made you smile. You asked for penguin kisses, for penguin hugs and for reassurance that you would have your privilege back tomorrow. You finally told me how much you would miss me if we were ever separated and I told you how much I would miss you too. You said that would be sad and I agreed. You then turned over, held your tiger and fell asleep, far too tired to have still been awake in the first place.
Today I also used the zoo to tell you about how this weekend you will where a "penguin suit" and be in Joe and Heidi's wedding. I thought that might prompt you to keep on your dress clothes. Haha. Let’s hope I’m right.
I love you!!
Mama
It's been an intense week for Mama and you could probably convince her to stand on her head if it would work out the kink in her shoulders and the tension in her brain.
This was your second week of preschool and my first week back at school for the year. Why did I think Developmental Pysch would be easier than my previous class? Temporary insanity apparently because I read 45 pages in three days and then wrote a paper and turned it all in before midnight last night. Oh and there is more to do before Friday... and then a test Monday... and a new paper due Wednesday and new reading starting tomorrow... and can you see now why mommy was awake until 2 am unable to sleep last night? Even after I finished all of my work, the ten minutes of "the Office" I watched with daddy just didn't cut the tension. In retrospect, I should have gotten out of bed and started dancing around with my headphones on... because that's what I did this morning and it made me feel so much better.
Oh yes, while you were at school today, I went to see my therapist and then I turned up Bjork's latest remix and I moved my body in all kinds of odd contortions. It felt good to have a minute where I just... didn't expect anything of myself. I expect way too much of myself. If I ever do this to you, you have my permission to slap me.
Today we went to the zoo with the famous Kaia- your beloved BFF of long-standing. You two are like two halves separated at birth that have suddenly been reunited. I think you ran the ENTIRE zoo loop together, pretending to be different animals, characters and seeking out babies in every direction. Of course, I was elated to spend time with the lovely Tabatha and Jaeda as well. You even got to ride the carousel TWICE since Kaia hadn't gotten a turn yet, but you made me stand next to Kaia's horse and well out of arm's reach of your saddle. On the way home we played, "I spy..." and you were THRILLED when you guessed the sky and were RIGHT. The sky IS blue and I had spied it (by the way, I must tell you that they found water on the Moon yesterday, crazy). Tonight you were feeling tired and fragile and you lost a privilege that you normally enjoy. We hung in there with your sadness despite your wanting the privilege back. I listened to your feelings, empathized and then asked what else we could do to make you feel better? You cried and said, "I don't know." So, I started talking to you using the stuffed penguin that we got you today and that made you smile. You asked for penguin kisses, for penguin hugs and for reassurance that you would have your privilege back tomorrow. You finally told me how much you would miss me if we were ever separated and I told you how much I would miss you too. You said that would be sad and I agreed. You then turned over, held your tiger and fell asleep, far too tired to have still been awake in the first place.
Today I also used the zoo to tell you about how this weekend you will where a "penguin suit" and be in Joe and Heidi's wedding. I thought that might prompt you to keep on your dress clothes. Haha. Let’s hope I’m right.
I love you!!
Mama