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picking up again something that you haven't done in a long time, and being pleased. that is me right now. i keep thinking about how it all goes back to when i had to choose, in middle school, whether to pursue music classes or art classes. and i chose music. but if i had chosen art, i wouldn't have ended up working at the new school, and then never would have taken this class anyway. or maybe i'd still be here, but from a totally different path. who knows? i am glad i did the music, maybe if art i would be just rediscovering the oboe, and would i ever make my eventual way to the guitar? i like to think about my potential other selves, especially when i feel somewhat good about my current state. but anyway, my whole point is that it's nice to feel capable: to see results and potential out of something that you weren't quite sure would end up working out, and trying it anyway and then seeing maybe something that is good. but why even think about some kind of unrepentant backtracking? i have come here, and that is all. just move forward with it