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[radandi]

i have now called myself an artist three times, and have referred to "my art" even more. it is very strange, to push through connotation to denotation in reference to one's self. i have been thinking a lot about what i am creating and what i wish to continue to create, and how. i want to be strategic, but also open to possibility. i read all of these works by different filmmakers, in their many capacities, and i have been experimenting with their methods in order to find my own. there is so much more i want to learn and try, and sometimes i forget that there is not a temporal limit on what i can do, at least in my experience. it does not need to be over, or gone, or passed from my mind, if i continue to pursue it. i am accustomed to starting a practice, learning the basics, and moving on. filmmaking, for me, is much more. there are so many different moving parts, so many methods and styles and aspects that perhaps i can never master, but try in different ways. i love this. i cannot ever get bored with the overall because it is constantly in flux.

my latest project is a step closer to what i am aiming for. but it is still not there. i dont know that i can ever reach what i want, but if i never reach it then i will continue to try. that is what i love.

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