Its been a while.

[rad55]

I know its been a long time- but I'll save the theatrics for another time.

Here is a poem i was feeling tonight

enjoy it

-rad

Its cold and brittle out
and I'm frigid
Can't come down
or calm down
I turn around
To no sight apparent
Can't control feelings
I'm on a ride
or it feels like one
Dancing with my mind
or rather, fighting
But for every other second
That goes by
That I think another thought
About you
I wonder why
How could I, let fate fail me
By not taking control
By not grasping the reins
I failed
To start all over again
It's harsh
And it hurts so bad
It seems to my eyes
That he is more into you
Then you could ever be
And it hurts to see
That we
Could of been perfection

(reprise)

So tonight I say the words that I've searched for the most
I say with great finesse (yet hold back that I don't boast)
I loved you the most of all for three long years
I've dealt with pain, suffering, lonely nights, and tears
through racking my brain so hard that I can't see
to loving you blindly so my mind could be at peace
I need to drop you from my world quicker than a habit
because if I left it up to love my life would be more tragic
You are the reason these words are spoken well
But you are the reason that from grace I fell
Its tough to love another and never get it back
even worse when you know its what they want too
All I wanted for Christmas was you
Yet, you, a gift you granted to another
So I'm left in the cold
to live another day
without each other
And left to wonder.