shit happens...

Jan 31, 2004 03:31

so...after a night when I REALLY didn't want to go out anyway...i buckled under pressure and decided to go out. After a football party and a few jello shots later, a bunch of us tried to get into smokes. Cathy decided she was going to go to erik's place..NOT A GOOD IDEA ON HER PART! yes cathy, if you're reading this, I KNOW there were better people to cuddle with and that is NOT a good reason to let him use you like that! anyways, smokes was gay, and not fun because there were SO SO SOOOO many people there, so pete and I decided to leave and walk back to hill. we stood in the lobby for a little and sure enough...who do you think walks in the door? Greg...with another girl! so now, there will definitely be NO MORE greg and tracy. this girl is definitely cute, really skinny (pete agreed she was cute..so you KNOW what that means), but she has an eyebrow ring which makes her a bit trashy looking. all in all...i'm growing a bit concerned of his number (of partners) and a.so I'm thinking I'm not gonna keep anything up with him because then I'll constantly be comparing myself to her and asking hiim about her. Now i have to decide and figure out how to be his friend. i'm not really very attached to him, so that part may or may not be hard. i haven't done too well with it so far eh? anyways, of course it made me jealous, since whenever i see a guy i've hooked up with or been with at ANY point in the past with another girl, i get jealous regardless of how i feel about them. I have issues with that i guess. i've never been able to see any past boyfriends with other girls. i know i have no right to be mad, since i AM the one who told him to get over it and move on, but for some reason, it still hurts..ya know?..anwyays, i guess that's it..just thought i'd let everyone know. peace out..i'm beat tired b/c it's 3:40am! daaaaamn
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