first entry in forever
I know this is my first entry in forever! Since writing is supposed to be "cleansing," I guess I'll try this whole thing out. So, the whole housing situation is not going so well around here. My parents, well my dad in particular, is an extremely hard person to please. Apparently I'm a failure in life. Now, since I've decided to stay at Penn and not go to Brown, I've really pissed him off. It's funny how he's convincing me to go now that I'm already at college. Who does that? He keeps telling me that it's my decision, but that he'd really like to go to Brown. Well, since I did one of the hardest things I've ever done and told him I'm staying at Penn, he thinks it's because it's the easy way out, because I have to do housing stuff. Because I left housing up to the last minute and have only two days to make a decision, i've waited too long and it shows that i'm very immature and haven't grown up at all. Because I did so poorly last semester, it also shows that I'm not mature. And now i need to figure out stupid problems about rent. It sucks that my dad is telling me that this business about housing is his life. This is what he does every day. He wants a copy of the lease, wants me to consider "what if the rent is late?" "what if someone doesn't pay?" "You don't want you're credit screwed up for the rest of your life."
Apparently I'm overweight too, and I need to go to a dietician. I need to go because this isn't an unreasonable request. I need to promise my dad that I will do things in a more timely fashion, I won't be so short with you, and I will basically talk to you until you feel better about yourself, so that you don't think you're a failure for producing such a messed up daughter. I need to work harder at listening to what my dad has to say, because he's almost 50 years old, and he got into the position he is in life beacuse he's smart, and I need to learn to not make the mistakes that I'm making. (I'm typing this as he's lecturing me for..about 45 minutes now).
On top of all this, my grandfather, my grandmother, my mom, and my dad know everything about my life, from one thing that I say to my mom because it gets AROUND in about 20 seconds. My away messages, what I say, even the whole sorority thing, everyone knows everything. I should just let them all live my life. I just feel like my life is being controlled by everyone else...and not me. I know this is a great first post. Sorry for all of you that had to read this, I definitely didn't mean for it to be this long...and at this point, I don't even know what it says anymore.
Apparently I'm overweight too, and I need to go to a dietician. I need to go because this isn't an unreasonable request. I need to promise my dad that I will do things in a more timely fashion, I won't be so short with you, and I will basically talk to you until you feel better about yourself, so that you don't think you're a failure for producing such a messed up daughter. I need to work harder at listening to what my dad has to say, because he's almost 50 years old, and he got into the position he is in life beacuse he's smart, and I need to learn to not make the mistakes that I'm making. (I'm typing this as he's lecturing me for..about 45 minutes now).
On top of all this, my grandfather, my grandmother, my mom, and my dad know everything about my life, from one thing that I say to my mom because it gets AROUND in about 20 seconds. My away messages, what I say, even the whole sorority thing, everyone knows everything. I should just let them all live my life. I just feel like my life is being controlled by everyone else...and not me. I know this is a great first post. Sorry for all of you that had to read this, I definitely didn't mean for it to be this long...and at this point, I don't even know what it says anymore.