He's... he gone. Turned away in a second. And it's all my fault. I hate myself. I could have been happy. I could have been happy and had someone who loved me back.

And now it's all gone.

And now I have nothing.

Just... me. Alone. Like it's always been.

EDIT: I'm just really... confused and hurt. I'll be fine.

Still stuck here. I guess I should go visit Lex. He might be able to help.

On the other hand, I shouldn't have accepted that dinner invite with the Harvey here. Something's bound to go wrong...

What's gotten into me? I'm so sorry, Bruce...

This morning I went out for coffee with Bruce. It was nice. We chatted a bit about random things. I haven't had good expensive coffee like that in a long time. I should go to that place more often. I mean, as soon as I get a job. At least I can understand how Bruce would want to drink so much of it in succession. God, I missed talking to Bruce. Do ( Read more... )

Today I went out to do some grocery shopping and as I was leaving the store, I couldn't help but wonder why I'm even living in Gotham. I mean, sure, I've lived here my entire life. There are so many memories, both good and bad, that have tied me to this place. But maybe it's about time I started thinking about this from a smarter angle and tried ( Read more... )

Today I decided to quit my job at the florists. It was long since due and I'm proud of myself. Not only did I find that job extremely boring, but I am more fit for a career choice that will implement the degrees I have earned. I haven't gone through six years of hell for nothing. Harvey recommended I get back into working with the law. I've ( Read more... )

Today's my birthday. I guess I'm 32 now. Wee. Go me. I baked myself a cake. I guess no one else remembered.

I don't know anything anymore. Everyone I once believed in has lied to me. Maybe I should start lying too. Then I might not feel so alone.

What's wrong with me? I decide to have one little drink and I end up making a fool of myself a few minutes later by proposing to Harvey. Ugh, I'm so stupid! Stupid-stupid-stupid! I shouldn't have touched that damn brandy. There are far better ways to take care of depression. Going cold turkey off those pills wasn't the brightest decision and now ( Read more... )

I took some time off my schedule to go and have tea with Alfred yesterday. It was quite nice being able to go back in time and talk about all the silly things Bruce and I used to do. I do miss all those days; playing in the dirt, making just plain mischief, plotting our next ambush into the kitchen to steal Alfred's cooking utensils just so we ( Read more... )