don't make me
what am i doing?? and how long can i stay this way?? uuuggghhhh... i absolutely hate indecision. when it is in other people. ya, i'm a hypocrite. sue me. but this is serious. this is people's lives hanging in the balance.
i feel like i am slowly being ripped apart each day. everywhere i go, he goes too. if i look over my shoulder, he's there. if i close my eyes, i still know he's behind me. i can't get rid of him. and it sucks.
for the moment that he is gone, she is there. always being ridiculously rude, saying the meanest things. i seriously can't stand her anymore. i don't want to be around her. i thought i wanted to try to make it work, but now i seriously don't give a shit. i just hope at this cabin it's not the same as the other one and i won't tell her she's a bitch. haha. so good. but probably shouldn't happen again. haha.
i really need to go to bed. unfortunetly me and sleep are not on the best of terms. she keeps running away from me. so i'm going to go laydown with my sleepytime tea.
and at that, he's back.
i feel like i am slowly being ripped apart each day. everywhere i go, he goes too. if i look over my shoulder, he's there. if i close my eyes, i still know he's behind me. i can't get rid of him. and it sucks.
for the moment that he is gone, she is there. always being ridiculously rude, saying the meanest things. i seriously can't stand her anymore. i don't want to be around her. i thought i wanted to try to make it work, but now i seriously don't give a shit. i just hope at this cabin it's not the same as the other one and i won't tell her she's a bitch. haha. so good. but probably shouldn't happen again. haha.
i really need to go to bed. unfortunetly me and sleep are not on the best of terms. she keeps running away from me. so i'm going to go laydown with my sleepytime tea.
and at that, he's back.