Sick Again
So here I am, should be doing HW, but so not feeling good right now, ugh. See, Eryn, I am sick ha! Yeah, speaking of that, she still won't return my phone calls, oops, sorry, forgot we are back in 1st grade! How immature is that? I still don't even see why she is so mad at me but whatever, if this ruins our friendship of 10+ years, then wow, that is sad. Oh well, I have been thinking about it lately (I do a lot of thinking at the gym) and really, I am not bumming over it, she does treat me pretty crappily and doesn't encourage me in my dreams as a true friend should. So, no idea if I am still in her wedding or what not and if she is going to have me in it just to have the numbers match up, well then, I am not gonna be in it, I am not going to be used anymore! I will so get my money back for the dress though. Ugh, this is just so stupid though that it really irks me! I hate being in conflict with people, I think that is the only reason that I care, plus I mean she has been a major part of my life for so long. Anyways, I have re-connected with 2 great other friends and as we all know, 2 is better than one. Ugh, so hate fighting or not talking with people. I am so sensitive that way too, totally affects my sleep and all. Plus, being sick, it is even harder to sleep now. I am sitting here and my face is so hot right now! It is actually bright red right now and it feels like the heat is just steaming off my face, yuck. I really hope this is not pneumonia again because that was horrid, though I did lose 10 lbs, that part was nice! I just hope if I do get much worse it will be over break though because missing school would be really bad. Oh my voice sounds so crappy now too, talking to Jaime tonight was funny. I am getting wheezy too, but oddly, this time it sounds worse when I inhale than when I exhale, hmm. My left ear has been getting plugged everyday for the past week or so too and that is really starting to drive me insane, especially the other day when it popped every time I chewed, yeah, lovely. I am thinking I might just end up going to the doc even though I don't want to since it takes like 2-4 hrs to get back there to see him. Oh well, feeling better will be worth the time. Went out on a sort of date today, it was pretty cool, but my chest was hurting and my ear was plugged so that kinda stunk. He was cool, just didn't talk much, and as Jaime noted, I talk a lot when I am nervous so I totally dominated the convo which I didn't like. He was so nice though and I had a good time, wicked smart too and I love the smart boys! Anyways, better try to get to bed, lungs and such are hurting so I probably need some rest. Ooh maybe I will take some TheraFlu, that stuff works, it is nasty, but works! Love/relationship thought of the day, any lady will love a gentleman!