where the eased desire in some fool's dream
hm. today wasn't a bad day, but it feels like things are starting to slope downhill right about now. i'm not surprised at all though. i did that thing that i said i shouldn't do because it just makes me more upset in the long run. why does it make me so upset? maybe part of me likes being upset. at least then i feel. i just feel like i miss home a lot right now. i know this is going to sound dumb of me, but i'm getting jealous of meg's friend josh. i'm so retarded. i know she's always going to be my best friend, i just wish i didn't have to question it sometimes. i just really love her and don't want to lose her. i sould so contradictory. i bet she feels the same way about me and friends i've made here. maybe i'm being selfish. i just wish i could spend more time with her.
anyway, today wasn't a bad day. bush won, yadda yadda. part of me doesn't care. yes, i voted for kerry, but at least i can say my vote counted because he did win new hampshire. so blah blah. the next four years will probably suck, but i don't care. that's just political stuff. i don't have to pay attention to it. maybe that's a horrible way to look at it, but that's at least how i feel.
i KNOW that the guy in my astronomy class noticed me today. he looked behind him (where i was seated) and i smiled right at him. he saw, and then looked away, and then looked back. haha. fag. we'll see. i wish it were warmer out so i could wear a t-shirt and show off the ole gaycelet.
dave and i played smash bros. and ate and he read my comics. it was cool. he really liked them. he didn't skim through them either. i HATE it when people just skim over them. it makes me feel like a 5 year-old! and we also raced down the hallway and stuff. i love racing people. i don't know why, i just find it so fun.
tomorrow is my astronomy exam. that means two things... i will have a busy day because that will take up more time. and i will also see paul from my astronomy class for an extra day in the week. ha!
ok, i'm done. i want to get more sleep tonight.
anyway, today wasn't a bad day. bush won, yadda yadda. part of me doesn't care. yes, i voted for kerry, but at least i can say my vote counted because he did win new hampshire. so blah blah. the next four years will probably suck, but i don't care. that's just political stuff. i don't have to pay attention to it. maybe that's a horrible way to look at it, but that's at least how i feel.
i KNOW that the guy in my astronomy class noticed me today. he looked behind him (where i was seated) and i smiled right at him. he saw, and then looked away, and then looked back. haha. fag. we'll see. i wish it were warmer out so i could wear a t-shirt and show off the ole gaycelet.
dave and i played smash bros. and ate and he read my comics. it was cool. he really liked them. he didn't skim through them either. i HATE it when people just skim over them. it makes me feel like a 5 year-old! and we also raced down the hallway and stuff. i love racing people. i don't know why, i just find it so fun.
tomorrow is my astronomy exam. that means two things... i will have a busy day because that will take up more time. and i will also see paul from my astronomy class for an extra day in the week. ha!
ok, i'm done. i want to get more sleep tonight.