the month we called November
what can i say? i feel like i have a lot to say, but i also feel like i don't feel like talking. i'm not in a bad mood at all, just not a talkative one. i don't know why i'm bothering here at all, but here goes. yesterday was highly uneventful. didn't do much at all, i think. i can't really remember right now for some reason. well, last night dave and i went to the movies. we saw Team America. it was really funny. i know a lot of people think it looks stupid, but it really wasn't. i hate stupid humor movies and this was not one of them. i was laughing out loud almost throughout the entire movie, and i never do that. so SEE IT! and dave is really cool. he is unlike any other gay guy i've met before, not that i've met many. a lot of the times we were talking i didn't feel like i was talking to another gay person. i'm not sure if that's good or bad. here's the thing though: i don't really find myself physically attracted to him at all. maybe it will come to me when i get to know him better, or maybe it won't. i'm sure physical attraction right off the bat isn't necessarily an important thing, but it helps. after the movie we got pulled over! but it was only because he didn't use his blinker. so we got off. <----TEE HEE! then we went back to his room and watched an Aqua Teen Hunger Force marathon. and we talked some more and it was nice. i'm glad nothing physical happened. i don't really know why i was worried of it, or even thought it might happen. maybe part of me thinks it's necessary, or part of me just doesn't understand it. BAH! i am so inexperienced. right now i just see him as a friend. i really need to get to know him more, whether as a friend or more. we are going out to eat tonight. i think Friday's. it's wicked convenient that he has a car. haha. not really. i like being on campus, so i would be content with never leaving to go out.
Paul (i think that's his name, the incredebly cute guy from my astronomy class) looked at me a few times today in class. well, we talked for about a second about the final exam and how it's gonna suck. and he definitely noticed me smiling at him. A LOT. and i think he smiled back too. DAMN! i just wish i could know if people were gay. is it wrong of me to still want him even though something may be going on with dave and me? he's just so fucking cute and hot that i can't help it! and i will see him more times this week because we have an exam on thursday when we don't normally have class. ahhhhh.
in french today i did a skit with a couple of people from class. we talked about prostitution in french! it was fun. part of me loves to humiliate myself.
i wish more people would have complimented on my last journal. more than one. i know livejournal has been wicked GEY lately, so maybe that's why. but it makes me happy to see more comments. complain, complain, faggety complain. haha.
Paul (i think that's his name, the incredebly cute guy from my astronomy class) looked at me a few times today in class. well, we talked for about a second about the final exam and how it's gonna suck. and he definitely noticed me smiling at him. A LOT. and i think he smiled back too. DAMN! i just wish i could know if people were gay. is it wrong of me to still want him even though something may be going on with dave and me? he's just so fucking cute and hot that i can't help it! and i will see him more times this week because we have an exam on thursday when we don't normally have class. ahhhhh.
in french today i did a skit with a couple of people from class. we talked about prostitution in french! it was fun. part of me loves to humiliate myself.
i wish more people would have complimented on my last journal. more than one. i know livejournal has been wicked GEY lately, so maybe that's why. but it makes me happy to see more comments. complain, complain, faggety complain. haha.