I'll always miss him, but I'm me again. And thats cool.
Today isn't a bad day, not good, but not bad. And it's such a relief to be able to say that!
This past month has been awful for me, and for those of you who helped me through, there are no words of thanks that could mean enough. But don't go anywhere yet, I'm not COMPLETELY over him.
But yeah, for the most part, I'm not matt-obsessed anymore. We got in a fight yesterday, and it helped! I couldn't believe it.
I'm just so mad at him. On the phone he was so arrogant... "I don't want you to do anything you'll regret because of me". Pretty much, "don't go kill yourself tiff because you're still in love with me, cause I know you are". And I just woke up! I'm better than this, I'm better than him (not to mention a lot hotter, which is damn cool). Not just for what he's done to me, but overall. I'm not going to be mean, I'll just say that I woke up.
Its a weird feeling, I feel like I just got done running, literally. Its like when you run in gym class and you can't stop until the teacher blows the whistle and you're so tired you really just want to stop. Then the whistle blows and you stumble over your own feet and just kind of pace around for a minute, trying to catch your breath. And you know you will, and you know you'll feel better. Thats where I am now, I very abruptly stopped running, and now I'm just waiting to catch my breath.
Other news...Emma G comes home tomorrow, and let me tell you I have NEVER been so excited to see someone in all my life. I miss her like crazy!!! We are going to have so much fun this weekend, so don't even try to call me. I'll be engrossed in the Best friend wonderfulness that is Gilchrist.
Happy Thanksgiving all!
P.S. I know you'll never read this but Matt... stop flattering yourself, what I do is for me only. You are no longer allowed to have my tears or my heart or even my "regrets". (and trust me, what we were discussing, I definitely would NOT regret, wink wink) Not anymore, you don't deserve it. Once you realize that I'm too good for you, THEN we can be friends. If that makes sense...
P.P.S. Not you Chris, you're being awful! And I want my freaking movie back!!!
This past month has been awful for me, and for those of you who helped me through, there are no words of thanks that could mean enough. But don't go anywhere yet, I'm not COMPLETELY over him.
But yeah, for the most part, I'm not matt-obsessed anymore. We got in a fight yesterday, and it helped! I couldn't believe it.
I'm just so mad at him. On the phone he was so arrogant... "I don't want you to do anything you'll regret because of me". Pretty much, "don't go kill yourself tiff because you're still in love with me, cause I know you are". And I just woke up! I'm better than this, I'm better than him (not to mention a lot hotter, which is damn cool). Not just for what he's done to me, but overall. I'm not going to be mean, I'll just say that I woke up.
Its a weird feeling, I feel like I just got done running, literally. Its like when you run in gym class and you can't stop until the teacher blows the whistle and you're so tired you really just want to stop. Then the whistle blows and you stumble over your own feet and just kind of pace around for a minute, trying to catch your breath. And you know you will, and you know you'll feel better. Thats where I am now, I very abruptly stopped running, and now I'm just waiting to catch my breath.
Other news...Emma G comes home tomorrow, and let me tell you I have NEVER been so excited to see someone in all my life. I miss her like crazy!!! We are going to have so much fun this weekend, so don't even try to call me. I'll be engrossed in the Best friend wonderfulness that is Gilchrist.
Happy Thanksgiving all!
P.S. I know you'll never read this but Matt... stop flattering yourself, what I do is for me only. You are no longer allowed to have my tears or my heart or even my "regrets". (and trust me, what we were discussing, I definitely would NOT regret, wink wink) Not anymore, you don't deserve it. Once you realize that I'm too good for you, THEN we can be friends. If that makes sense...
P.P.S. Not you Chris, you're being awful! And I want my freaking movie back!!!