Hm..
things are okay...i think so. i still feel like i can't trust brandon...perhaps he loves me...maybe. it's just so hard to trust him, and now i'll be leaving for home for a little over a week, we won't see each other for a few days. i'm not sure how i should feel. should i say "please don't hang out with girls" or should i bite my tongue? i think that's why things are better, not because they have changed, but because i'm holding my tongue. maybe i shouldn't do that, maybe i should get out now. but i'm just so afraid of being alone. i think we both are, and that's why we stay together.