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hey guys, i have been thinking. and isnt it weird, how u can get 10832 compliments and then 1 jerk can be a dusche bag and make fun of you, and that's what u listen to. thats what sticks in ur mind. like honestly, the whole school can say "wow u look pretty today" and then 1 person can say "no one likes u, ur ugly and they're just ebing nice" and u think, wow... are they really just being nice? and not the obvious, that that 1 person is just being mean, nothing happened like that, i was just thinking about it, when i am upset for some reason i sit down and take out a pen and paper, and i write. i write words that come to mind, i try to rhyme them and i make a poem... which normally doesnt make much sense. well, the semester has been over since monday, and i dont really like my new classes, its not that im upset of atleast i dont think i am. but last night i just sat down with pen and paper, and thought about all sorts of stuff [mostly paul] but in the end the final product, my whole poem was all about chemistry,and how much i miss it. is that weird or what? idk, i guess i just miss the consistancy and the fact that i was always in that room having fun with someone, mostly jenna, and just so many good memories came to mind, and then i remembered... their MEMORIES, their no longer going to happen, nothing will happen like that again... its over, its the end. its done with. i kinda sorta, wish i failed chem, so then i can retake it. and redo all of that fun. in 8th grade, i absolutely HATED science. i had a NEGATIVE 42 average., me. I DID! can u believe that? well... its true. then i went to a B class for geo phys, and i loved the class. not the people. and def. not the teacher. i just had so much fun, and i did great!. then i went to an A bio class, after a LOT of fighting.[fucking werner!] i was so worried i would suck at life, and fail miserably, i thought maybe werner was right, and i cant succeed in an A class, so i tried it out, and i did great, and i loved it! now i went to chem, and i knew i could do it, and i did, and i had so much fun! like a BLAST! from rainey setting herself on fire, to writing test answers on my per. table to convert to a note to jenna. and so far in hs i think science has been my fave subj. it went from least favorite to favorite within 3 yrs. i think im going to try hon. physics and then i think i might want to be a sci. teacher. idk. im glad i wrote in here how i felt. comment if u want, it was more of a vent then anything. but comments are always appreciated!
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