i dont even know what too think... SOOOOOO LOST in my mind!!!!!
Once again i am upset with myself cause another night of bailing a trick i know have wasted almost 4 hours trying to get. NOt much time left here but gotta make the most of it or at least not let what bugs me stress me. Its skateboarding i cant believe the impact on me it has. SOmetimes it controls me and makes me the worst person ever i turn into like a demon. Its crazy and i know i need to chill, but sometimes that is hard!!! I need to accomplish something or else jesus i dont know what imma do! At least i enjoy filming and im not too bad at that if n e thing pretty good and it doesnt stress me out! I just want to forget OR GEt over it, why is i so hard to let go (not talking about skating). I still cant believe how upset i make myself, i have it so i just need to commit and do what i feel i need to do. Then i will finally be happy or thats what i hope again it is only skaeboarding and a skateboard trick. At least im not too sore my hip sure hurts though. ALright, i guess thats it for now, clear mind, good thoughts, and staying calm and understanding what i can do, i got this. Life o boi o boi...