a new life. a new city.
I have decided to stay after my internship is over and get a work permit for 6 months.
So I will not be back until at least November. (If at all, if I had it my way!)
I absolutely could not be happier.
I love it here so much and it just suits me, really.
I feel like I can really succeed here and do what I need to do, both career wise and in my personal life.
The memories that certain people have left me with from Chicago will stay with me forever. And I hope to remember only the good ones and none of the bad. I just feel like not talking to anyone from there, especially a certain boy, is the best thing for me to do right now. I just want to move on with my life. Not forget or erase, but to just move on. It's been a crazy 3 years and I am growing up and learning from it and I have become a better person in the end. I'm not angry though, that feeling has subsided quite a bit. I just want to distance myself from it all and from them and I feel like not having any contact with them is the best way to go. Maybe I'm wrong, I don't know. I just know what I feel is the right thing to do.
Talking or having any contact would just make it all the more difficult and painful because that's what it truly is.
And honestly, I have met someone else. I didn't mean to, it wasn't planned. I just have. And my life has turned into something of a romantic British comedy. It has been so incredibly wonderful that I just don't even know what to do or say. It's never ever been like this before. Not saying that it's better or worse, it's just incredibly different. And so fucking wonderful. Sigh... :)
I am one happy boy.
So I will not be back until at least November. (If at all, if I had it my way!)
I absolutely could not be happier.
I love it here so much and it just suits me, really.
I feel like I can really succeed here and do what I need to do, both career wise and in my personal life.
The memories that certain people have left me with from Chicago will stay with me forever. And I hope to remember only the good ones and none of the bad. I just feel like not talking to anyone from there, especially a certain boy, is the best thing for me to do right now. I just want to move on with my life. Not forget or erase, but to just move on. It's been a crazy 3 years and I am growing up and learning from it and I have become a better person in the end. I'm not angry though, that feeling has subsided quite a bit. I just want to distance myself from it all and from them and I feel like not having any contact with them is the best way to go. Maybe I'm wrong, I don't know. I just know what I feel is the right thing to do.
Talking or having any contact would just make it all the more difficult and painful because that's what it truly is.
And honestly, I have met someone else. I didn't mean to, it wasn't planned. I just have. And my life has turned into something of a romantic British comedy. It has been so incredibly wonderful that I just don't even know what to do or say. It's never ever been like this before. Not saying that it's better or worse, it's just incredibly different. And so fucking wonderful. Sigh... :)
I am one happy boy.