the system is back up and running around like a headless chicken
well first off, i've decided to stop doing what's better for others or what others want and spend a little time on what's BEST for ME!! hopefully things will turn out better by doing so. OH WAIT, they already have started to get better. ZZDUH! so i still live in my apartment with Amanda and now Chris Tooze and our newfound friend Janelle. she has a funny voice but i still love her. and i know elsa thinks it's amusing too. so it is that Janelle and Elsa have both voted and agree that i should get my nose pierced? yeah i'm not sure about that one. i want an industrial first before i go and put another hole in my nose. i've been thinking alot lately and i realized that i'm very dissappointed with some of the choices that i have made in my life but i am glad that i did them because otherwise i wouldn't be who i am now. i feel that i have finally figured out what i NEED to do and how to detect when i am falling away from what i really want in life. i have also realized that people are fake and selfish and that it's really hard for me to trust new people. but that could also be because i'm use to knowing people for 13 plus years....ELSA and MAGGIE. how can anyone else compete with that? i guess you'll have to try if you want to be in my life bitches. and if that's just too much to ask of you, then get the hell out of my way 'cause i'm on a journey and i will stand for nothing getting in my way. i've found that when things get stressful i like to go for drives while singing my heart out to what is playing from my cd player. it's a real stress-reliever for me. but of course singing always was my way out. i don't respect those who choose to drink their problems away or smoke their problems away, 'cause that's not dealing with them at all. there are far more safe ways to deal with things then trying to drink your life away, unless of course you're drinking water! i've also found out that i really like getting piercings, but there are still a lot of piercing that i would NEVER get. i've also realized that i'm not like most of the people i hang out with on a day-to-day basis, because i am extrememly happy with being single or alone instead of always looking for someone to be with, and i find it quite pathetic to go from person to person, one right after the other. i inspire myself daily to try and be a better person and i'm thankful for the things or people that help me to do so. i'm very grateful for the ones that have stayed by my side and supported me and my decisions whether they were right or not. THANK YOU and you know who you are. well i think i have covered everything that was on my mind at this moment but i will be back to bitch and complain some more i can assure you that. i love my life and i can't wait for the rest of it to happen.
from one bitch to another,
Kim
from one bitch to another,
Kim