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Nothing can go right. everything good ends. i cant have fun with out worrin about somethan eles. tons of things are goin wrong right now i cnat fix anything. im hurtin becuase of myself. i didnt understand till now. its soo hard. you just wish ppl could understand and help and talk to you about stuff but when you do they dnt have time, or dnt want to talk. you try to make plans with someone but they cancle cause someone more important calls and ask to do somthan. i wish it would just stop i have done everything in the world to make this feelin go away IT wont leave me alone. i laugh have fun. but it never goes rihgt. somethan always has to happen to make it erupt and end. idk what to do. i try to keep my slef busy && try not to worry about stuff but somthan always has to remind me of it. && then on all top of this i have this other person in my life that has had such a inflence && that i love but cant bring my self to hang with him. i have sooo many emotions right now. Happysadexcitedmad. i dnt have a job at the moment. i love my freinds! theyr pretty awesome! i just dnt know what to do??????