All is well. I feel peaceful and benevolent about the breakup. Now, I should give credit where credit is due: Eric is being amazing and I owe my emotional sanity to him for that ( Read more... )

Well.

Two big events have transpired and left me reeling in their wake.

I'll move from least to most earth shaking.

Heidi's wedding is over. ( It was beautiful. )

*bristles and bares her teeth*

Eric and I never ever fight. Rarely, we squabble; but an actual "heated discussion" literally never happens.

Last night a fight pounced on us like a fat man doing a cannon ball. Actually, the fight wasn't that huge outwardly, but that was mostly because I was so angry I couldn't think, and knew that nothing good would ( Read more... )

Yesterday I had a falling out with Jason. It began with a possible hookup and ended with me finally accepting that in truth I'm still totally in love with him.

( the rest of the sorry, sorry story's here... )

So, the cystoscopy was pretty awful. Not really horribly painful, but it was horribly uncomfortable. The worst part is that he didn't find anything wrong. Not that I want something like cancer, but at least if that were the case, it could be treated and the pain would stop. But no, I'm the only person in the world who suffers pain to the point of ( Read more... )