under pressure.
ugh. it's late but i'm up thinking. i don't want to go home for easter, but i have to. i'm expected to cook. it's just one of those things that you do in our family whether you like it or not. the women cook and everyone comes over.
i'm just not in the mood. i'm tired, exhausted by school. ben will be over almost my whole week of spring break and i love to see him, like i LOVE to see him, but it seems that i can't get enough rest anymore. everyone is sick at school, all the time, and i get over one cold just to start with another one. when is it enough already? when is my time my own?
all i do is school, all the time. i come home from school, sleep, wake up and eat, play maple story, do school stuff, then go back to sleep. that's all i have the energy for. i don't go anywhere anymore or do anything. i'm sure i'd be depressed if i had enough energy to be depressed. the kids are failing, they can't read, and this or that test is due, and everyone is picketing next week because we still don't have contracts. i would say something about priorities but at this point who knows which is higher than the other.
my tv broke last week and i'm convinced it's a conspiracy - electronics companies make things now that break in a certain amount of years so you're forced to buy whatever the new technology is. the tv and the dvd player were purchased at the same time and both have broken about 2 months apart, but i've owned them for only 3 years. the fact that i'm thinking conspiracy theories is making me wonder if i'm going insane or something. this is how my dad was for a while there, because he was overworked and exhausted, and the only solution might be moving to a farm somewhere. i'm going, i'm going.
i'm just not in the mood. i'm tired, exhausted by school. ben will be over almost my whole week of spring break and i love to see him, like i LOVE to see him, but it seems that i can't get enough rest anymore. everyone is sick at school, all the time, and i get over one cold just to start with another one. when is it enough already? when is my time my own?
all i do is school, all the time. i come home from school, sleep, wake up and eat, play maple story, do school stuff, then go back to sleep. that's all i have the energy for. i don't go anywhere anymore or do anything. i'm sure i'd be depressed if i had enough energy to be depressed. the kids are failing, they can't read, and this or that test is due, and everyone is picketing next week because we still don't have contracts. i would say something about priorities but at this point who knows which is higher than the other.
my tv broke last week and i'm convinced it's a conspiracy - electronics companies make things now that break in a certain amount of years so you're forced to buy whatever the new technology is. the tv and the dvd player were purchased at the same time and both have broken about 2 months apart, but i've owned them for only 3 years. the fact that i'm thinking conspiracy theories is making me wonder if i'm going insane or something. this is how my dad was for a while there, because he was overworked and exhausted, and the only solution might be moving to a farm somewhere. i'm going, i'm going.