*Sigh*
So Nona's diapers are giving out. I have the Tiny Tush diaper package, and I had hoped it would last through her and the next baby to come along.
I doubt it'll happen, though, because the elastic around the legs of the diapers is giving out and the diaper covers are practically falling apart.
The thing that sucks is that Josh and I are moving, so we won't be able to afford buying new diaper covers. I've had to email my mom and ask her if she'd buy us six new covers and HOPE that she will be able to afford it. She makes good money and stuff, but still...that'll cost almost $70, and that's not a small chunk of change.
I'm frustrated with being broke all the time. Josh and I are lucky to get into Berkeley student housing, but our rent will be $1500 a month and we'll barely be scraping by. We'll have to get on Food Stamps and hope that our state medical insurance stays the same until one or both of us graduates.
I'm so stressed out at the idea of everything right now. I'm taking 4 classes right now, but I may add another in an effort to get through what I need to do in order to transfer to a 4-year university. As soon as we move, I'll have to commute two hours each way to get to class or work. I'm afraid I won't have time to spend with my family, and that if i do somehow find the time, we'll both be too busy for each other and Nona.
Sometimes it's hard to keep my eye on the prize. Sometimes I think "I'm being selfish. I should quit school and try to find a job that will provide well for my family. Josh can graduate and get a really good job and then we won't be poor."
It's so hard to be this broke. We're getting to the point where we may not even be able to afford "essentials."
I'll just have to cut corners wherever I can and hope that it's enough for us to still live fairly comfortably.
I just have to remind myself to have faith in the universe and keep my attitude positive.
I doubt it'll happen, though, because the elastic around the legs of the diapers is giving out and the diaper covers are practically falling apart.
The thing that sucks is that Josh and I are moving, so we won't be able to afford buying new diaper covers. I've had to email my mom and ask her if she'd buy us six new covers and HOPE that she will be able to afford it. She makes good money and stuff, but still...that'll cost almost $70, and that's not a small chunk of change.
I'm frustrated with being broke all the time. Josh and I are lucky to get into Berkeley student housing, but our rent will be $1500 a month and we'll barely be scraping by. We'll have to get on Food Stamps and hope that our state medical insurance stays the same until one or both of us graduates.
I'm so stressed out at the idea of everything right now. I'm taking 4 classes right now, but I may add another in an effort to get through what I need to do in order to transfer to a 4-year university. As soon as we move, I'll have to commute two hours each way to get to class or work. I'm afraid I won't have time to spend with my family, and that if i do somehow find the time, we'll both be too busy for each other and Nona.
Sometimes it's hard to keep my eye on the prize. Sometimes I think "I'm being selfish. I should quit school and try to find a job that will provide well for my family. Josh can graduate and get a really good job and then we won't be poor."
It's so hard to be this broke. We're getting to the point where we may not even be able to afford "essentials."
I'll just have to cut corners wherever I can and hope that it's enough for us to still live fairly comfortably.
I just have to remind myself to have faith in the universe and keep my attitude positive.