"Quizzes"
You scored as True Neutral. A True Neutral person has two faces- either these people are merely apathetic, preferring to focus their minds on more important things, or these people truly believe in a balance of all things. To these people, there can be no light without some darkness. These people also have no dedication to, or intrinsic distrust of, laws.
Lawful Evil
65%
Lawful Good
65%
Neutral Good
65%
True Neutral
65%
Chaotic Good
65%
Chaotic Evil
45%
Neutral Evil
45%
Chaotic Neutral
40%
Lawful Neutral
35%
What is your Alignment?
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Okay was gonna post mor but zenhex is being a bastard... i'm gonna die... right here in my chair... thats right,
Instead of making things less complicated with my ties in California.... Went searching for my old ties... thoe ones that brought the most comfort (in a non sexual way)... I've got one pinned down... two are still tentative... another i'm still working on... and i just don't know what i'm doing anymore. I'm doing things without thinking....whats wrong with me... auto-pilot is never good... never i end up doing things that could have reprocussions for months and years to come... FUCK.. I wish i could just take today back and start over... or fuck.. not even the whole day.. i want to take back the very moment i decided to look up an old friend... if i had never done that and succeeded i would never have contacted the others.... damnit.
And i'm still cramping like a bitch, how grrchy can life be... I want the sheepies to have thier olives cause they deserve them... and let the jews have the sheep who have the olives... cuz the jews should be allowed to have them, and know that the olives (and sheepies) are theirs for as long as the sheepies live...
Rambling i know, there's only onw person on this earth aside from me who should even get close to understanding what that meant... so don't even ask...
I wonder if there are saltwater ducks? I mean are there really ducks who live in the ocean's expanse.... or are they condemmed to fresh and brakish water for thier entire existance? Well ARE THEY?!?!?! Grrrrr WHY DON"T YOU ANSWER ME?
Damnit.... Its been a long time since i've even been extendedly ecstatic... (by extended i mean for more than a couple of days...) And i want that feeling that exhiliration again.....
I Want to be a SELFISH BRAT for like once and not have someone in my famil open their damned mouths and make me feel guilty like i've been conditioned to... That is just bullshit.. I've been swayed soo much by my guilt when i had a right to do what i did that was concidered selfish in the first place.. I don't want to ever have to give up on anything again when i fought so hard to keep it.. and when i finally get it...I cannot enjoy it because they try to shift and sway break and batter my resolve... and if it were anyone else i could give a fuck... but that is not something you try to do to/ around my family.. they don't like to play nice once you've told them no or pissed them off...
I i'm the same way... EXCEPT wit them... only in like the last couple of years have i serioursly been resisting the urgings and comments and insistances (however non-vocal) they were, people in my family don't have to SAY ANYTHING to get the message across, and if you've ever been in a room with two or more of us you know what i mean... It's not pretty when contempt is just beneath the surface...how did i even get here ( on this tangent i mean)?...
Take the quiz: "Which Element Are You?"
.:.Water.:.
Goodie, you're element is water...You tend to have mood spikes/swings but you calm down eventually. You like to just go with the flow. You have a calm or shy nature but you can easily become angry and wild like the ocean waves.
Take the quiz: "What's your symbol?"
Heartagram
Either you are a HIM fan, a mellow rocker, or you just didn't fit in with any other symbol. You are a Heartagram. Congrats.....Hey have you listened to Razorblade Romance recently? It's what I'm listening to right now....you should be too!
I fucking wish i was listening to razorblade romance... I love that cd...
Ok well it's time i went now.. all set to leave my second job.. grab a cd or two and a dvd... then go to sleep for something close to a an hour and go to work... but lucky for me i have the new nora roberts book... and tonight is my friday for my night job... so yay.. i still have to finish my cosmo though.. and i and so bushed but i don't look it cuz i've had a bunch of make up on since i came home from work.. btw no sleep for me yet today... not even a closing of the eyes for longer than 30 seconds... kinda sad... but whatever.. maybe thats what's affecting my mood so much.... cuz even when i've ben getting to bed i sleep very badly... so haphazardly and i wake up sevral times a night.. its fucking stupid... but thats the other problem with getting used to having someone in your bed for like a year and a half... (well technically one was for a yeah and the other was for like 5 or 6 months but it was realtively close together on the timescale of things.. what like a few months in between... on the spectrum of life thats a blip on the timeline... so yeah.. grr.. i wonder if i've got the guts to follow though and not procrastinate? probably , but will i display that or fall into habit... most likely the latter because habits are formed for a reason... mmmhmm thats right i sasid it.... I am so pale..
I do not look anywhere near as "Tanned" as i was in Cali, and apparently unless i go back or to a place with just as much sun for a "tanning session" i'm going to remain pale, almost yellow (but i turn red too much to stay yellow... from heat from cold... embarassment, anger, just about everything... which kinda sucks...) but yeah can we say tangent... It's oh so hard to stay on track at times like this.. I keep spinning round and round, with nothing to indicate if i'm gonna stop.... so an i going to keep going till i fall and pass out or will i continue to spin evermore... or... Will i just randomly !stop! and then what wait for the rest of the worl to stop spinning too and catch up with me ... I suppose it works... i think this would be so different if things had never gotten complocated but hey thats life.. and i'm gonna get used to it... cuz i plan on having more than one house in more than one country... That's right my passport WILL be renewed every ten years until thhe day i die... yep yep... I want one (atleast) in western europe..... and one in Japan.. and another in Grece.. And atleast 2 in Latin America.... It wil give me the perfect excuse to continue to learn languages the rest of my life... I absolutely crave learning to speak and write in new languages...
Can you blame me?
I suppose one could.. but it doesn't matter... not one bit...
Cuz i love languages so much i think i couldn't live without a second one.. :D
I'm gonna really go this time....
Bye bye...
[{please note the lyrics to missing by Evanesscence are an add on to my original post}]
Missing lyrics
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"
You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Sometimes no matter how much someone says one thing i cannot help but notcie their actions... and this is how i feel about the people who were supposedly an essential part of my life in California.... and i might be overreacting.. but do i give a fuck? no... i think not (though please also note that not ALL of you from Cali are linked into this vile catagory.. just the ones who told me they care so much that i could never know/ they just can't tell me about it...)
Breathe No More lyrics
[Piano Solo Opening]
I've been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I've come to believe my souls on the other side.
Oh the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
To sharp to put back together.
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.
Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe now...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more.
[Piano Solo Ending]
Yeah i'm hurting on the inside.. but so what I deal.. and it only makes me stronger..not to mention when i snap out of this and realize i was dillusional it will all be okay... but no matter how much i tell myself its not real its all in my head that just sounds like crazy talk.... and damn i keep seeing these little like sprinkles of light every now and again like a tiny little sprite (and i'm not talking soda people)....
I'm gonna go.. again Oh by the way i added breath no more after i had reposted the post again.. so yeah.. i think i'm gonna leave it alone now.. i think... but if i have the time to i'll fudge with it again.. i really want something and nothing you know? like something for taste but not for substance.. and i'm not talking JUST food wiher.. i want food.. there's only one person who would know and understand this.. sadly i do not believe that person even reads my journals... so I doubt I'll have that shared sence of know with anyone again.. no one else feeds....
Lawful Evil
65%
Lawful Good
65%
Neutral Good
65%
True Neutral
65%
Chaotic Good
65%
Chaotic Evil
45%
Neutral Evil
45%
Chaotic Neutral
40%
Lawful Neutral
35%
What is your Alignment?
created with QuizFarm.com
Okay was gonna post mor but zenhex is being a bastard... i'm gonna die... right here in my chair... thats right,
Instead of making things less complicated with my ties in California.... Went searching for my old ties... thoe ones that brought the most comfort (in a non sexual way)... I've got one pinned down... two are still tentative... another i'm still working on... and i just don't know what i'm doing anymore. I'm doing things without thinking....whats wrong with me... auto-pilot is never good... never i end up doing things that could have reprocussions for months and years to come... FUCK.. I wish i could just take today back and start over... or fuck.. not even the whole day.. i want to take back the very moment i decided to look up an old friend... if i had never done that and succeeded i would never have contacted the others.... damnit.
And i'm still cramping like a bitch, how grrchy can life be... I want the sheepies to have thier olives cause they deserve them... and let the jews have the sheep who have the olives... cuz the jews should be allowed to have them, and know that the olives (and sheepies) are theirs for as long as the sheepies live...
Rambling i know, there's only onw person on this earth aside from me who should even get close to understanding what that meant... so don't even ask...
I wonder if there are saltwater ducks? I mean are there really ducks who live in the ocean's expanse.... or are they condemmed to fresh and brakish water for thier entire existance? Well ARE THEY?!?!?! Grrrrr WHY DON"T YOU ANSWER ME?
Damnit.... Its been a long time since i've even been extendedly ecstatic... (by extended i mean for more than a couple of days...) And i want that feeling that exhiliration again.....
I Want to be a SELFISH BRAT for like once and not have someone in my famil open their damned mouths and make me feel guilty like i've been conditioned to... That is just bullshit.. I've been swayed soo much by my guilt when i had a right to do what i did that was concidered selfish in the first place.. I don't want to ever have to give up on anything again when i fought so hard to keep it.. and when i finally get it...I cannot enjoy it because they try to shift and sway break and batter my resolve... and if it were anyone else i could give a fuck... but that is not something you try to do to/ around my family.. they don't like to play nice once you've told them no or pissed them off...
I i'm the same way... EXCEPT wit them... only in like the last couple of years have i serioursly been resisting the urgings and comments and insistances (however non-vocal) they were, people in my family don't have to SAY ANYTHING to get the message across, and if you've ever been in a room with two or more of us you know what i mean... It's not pretty when contempt is just beneath the surface...how did i even get here ( on this tangent i mean)?...
Take the quiz: "Which Element Are You?"
.:.Water.:.
Goodie, you're element is water...You tend to have mood spikes/swings but you calm down eventually. You like to just go with the flow. You have a calm or shy nature but you can easily become angry and wild like the ocean waves.
Take the quiz: "What's your symbol?"
Heartagram
Either you are a HIM fan, a mellow rocker, or you just didn't fit in with any other symbol. You are a Heartagram. Congrats.....Hey have you listened to Razorblade Romance recently? It's what I'm listening to right now....you should be too!
I fucking wish i was listening to razorblade romance... I love that cd...
Ok well it's time i went now.. all set to leave my second job.. grab a cd or two and a dvd... then go to sleep for something close to a an hour and go to work... but lucky for me i have the new nora roberts book... and tonight is my friday for my night job... so yay.. i still have to finish my cosmo though.. and i and so bushed but i don't look it cuz i've had a bunch of make up on since i came home from work.. btw no sleep for me yet today... not even a closing of the eyes for longer than 30 seconds... kinda sad... but whatever.. maybe thats what's affecting my mood so much.... cuz even when i've ben getting to bed i sleep very badly... so haphazardly and i wake up sevral times a night.. its fucking stupid... but thats the other problem with getting used to having someone in your bed for like a year and a half... (well technically one was for a yeah and the other was for like 5 or 6 months but it was realtively close together on the timescale of things.. what like a few months in between... on the spectrum of life thats a blip on the timeline... so yeah.. grr.. i wonder if i've got the guts to follow though and not procrastinate? probably , but will i display that or fall into habit... most likely the latter because habits are formed for a reason... mmmhmm thats right i sasid it.... I am so pale..
I do not look anywhere near as "Tanned" as i was in Cali, and apparently unless i go back or to a place with just as much sun for a "tanning session" i'm going to remain pale, almost yellow (but i turn red too much to stay yellow... from heat from cold... embarassment, anger, just about everything... which kinda sucks...) but yeah can we say tangent... It's oh so hard to stay on track at times like this.. I keep spinning round and round, with nothing to indicate if i'm gonna stop.... so an i going to keep going till i fall and pass out or will i continue to spin evermore... or... Will i just randomly !stop! and then what wait for the rest of the worl to stop spinning too and catch up with me ... I suppose it works... i think this would be so different if things had never gotten complocated but hey thats life.. and i'm gonna get used to it... cuz i plan on having more than one house in more than one country... That's right my passport WILL be renewed every ten years until thhe day i die... yep yep... I want one (atleast) in western europe..... and one in Japan.. and another in Grece.. And atleast 2 in Latin America.... It wil give me the perfect excuse to continue to learn languages the rest of my life... I absolutely crave learning to speak and write in new languages...
Can you blame me?
I suppose one could.. but it doesn't matter... not one bit...
Cuz i love languages so much i think i couldn't live without a second one.. :D
I'm gonna really go this time....
Bye bye...
[{please note the lyrics to missing by Evanesscence are an add on to my original post}]
Missing lyrics
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"
You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?
Sometimes no matter how much someone says one thing i cannot help but notcie their actions... and this is how i feel about the people who were supposedly an essential part of my life in California.... and i might be overreacting.. but do i give a fuck? no... i think not (though please also note that not ALL of you from Cali are linked into this vile catagory.. just the ones who told me they care so much that i could never know/ they just can't tell me about it...)
Breathe No More lyrics
[Piano Solo Opening]
I've been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I've come to believe my souls on the other side.
Oh the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
To sharp to put back together.
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.
Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe now...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more.
[Piano Solo Ending]
Yeah i'm hurting on the inside.. but so what I deal.. and it only makes me stronger..not to mention when i snap out of this and realize i was dillusional it will all be okay... but no matter how much i tell myself its not real its all in my head that just sounds like crazy talk.... and damn i keep seeing these little like sprinkles of light every now and again like a tiny little sprite (and i'm not talking soda people)....
I'm gonna go.. again Oh by the way i added breath no more after i had reposted the post again.. so yeah.. i think i'm gonna leave it alone now.. i think... but if i have the time to i'll fudge with it again.. i really want something and nothing you know? like something for taste but not for substance.. and i'm not talking JUST food wiher.. i want food.. there's only one person who would know and understand this.. sadly i do not believe that person even reads my journals... so I doubt I'll have that shared sence of know with anyone again.. no one else feeds....