I am soo fucked up right now..

[quixotic_poison]

Damn i am so messed up.. and my mom's all over it like white on rice... (meaning she knows somethings going on.. but just doesn't know what IT is

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its worth a try

[anonymous]

i know that there is nothing that i can say that will even have the slightest impact on your mood, but i am going to say one thing: there is no way in hell that you have a right to call yourself lazy! im sorry but just because you didnt go to work one day doesnt mean anything but the fact that you were exhausted and needed some rest. i guarantee you that i could seriously give you a run for your money when it comes to the lethargy department. you at least have a job that is demanding enough to make you want to crawl into bed and stay there for the next month. i do it just because i dont feel like anything else. when was the last time that youve gone to sleep at midnight and woke up at 6 in the evening? i know that i have for the past three days(sad i know)! im not trying to lecture you, but i just at least want you to get that notion out of your head. i wish that i had a job(that gave me more than 8 hours a week) that actually did make me feel spent and absolutely drained. hopefully that will change within the next few months, but still.
But then again i could be emphasising something that is totally redundant(as i usually always am). so even if that is the case, at least i might get a good laugh out of you(wishful thinking i know, but hey, its Ducky!) at my naivety. whatever the case, i hope that there is something in the near future that will brighten your spirits some. not likely, but its me and you know how optimistic i can be. but i wish you well and would like to hear from you sometime soon to see how your doin. i havent heard from you in what seems like forever. but either way ill probably talk to you sometime soon.

Much love:
Ducky

Re: its worth a try

[quixotic_poison]

its not my job thats leaving me draine... trust me i can deal with the owrkload.. it's my emotions.. and as weird as it seems.. my apathy..

I know sad but true.. working is nots whats bending me out of shape.. i'm far to bents and i'm trying to straighten things back out.. but is not working an i'm now trying to bury my head in the sand.. i'm epressed and nothing more.. so you just get that notion out of your head that i can't handle two jobs.. cuz i can..

I'm just soooo irritable right now cuz i'm epresse an stuff...

Re: its worth a try

[anonymous]

like i said, i knew that i had it all wrong. its okay tho. i totally understand and if there's anything that i can do, please let me know. you can give me a call anytime, you know that. i do mean ANYTIME.

PS: if it makes you feel any better your not the only one with apathy problems :P im depressed too ya know. i dont know. i tried.

maybe i should stop posting as anonymous(lol) its not like its doing any good.

Much love:
Ducky