Fin.
Blah. I think I'll make some New Years resolutions. Why the hell not? No one keeps them anyway. This winter break has been pretty eh. I don't know... As usual, I don't have any plans for New Years Eve. It wouldn't be that big a deal if I didn't know everyone else in the world is doing something fun because they actually have friends who want to be with them.
Ugh. I hung out with Danielle today. I don't know what to think. We seriously have done a shitty job of keeping in touch, and today we didn't even do any "catching up." I have really no idea what's going on in her life, other than she's obsessed with Billy (and he with her... lucky ducks?). We made plans to hang out together today on Christmas Eve, but then I called her yesterday to finalize and she asked if it would be okay if Ally came too. (Ally = 12 year old Danielle's mom used to/still? babysits) So I said that it was okay, because it's not like I was going to say no. But I don't know, that doesn't really lend to us having any in-depth conversations. So we ended up going to see a movie (also not really catching-up friendly) with Ally AND Dani's parents. And that was fine, it was fun, they treated me to pizza, and then just Dani and I went to Walmart because she needed to do some back-to-school shopping (well, it ended up being a LOT of back-to-school shopping, in my opinion). So I thought, "Okay, we'll chat while we shop." No. There was no chattage whatsoever. Not even on the car ride home really, 2 hours later. She told me a story about this girl from her high school, and that was pretty much it. She talked to me a little bit about Meridith (her other old best friend), and how they don't talk anymore, and I was just kind of, "Oh, that's weird..." But all I could think was, "We don't talk anymore either..." So blah.
What's really bothering me most right now is the fact that I haven't talked to Tom in over a week, and the last time we spoke we didn't really end on a good note. Basically it ended on him "sleeping on" whether or not he wants me to be his girlfriend (I think...) but he's been 'sleeping on it' for over a week now, and I'm kind of like what the fuck because he said something to me that is making me afraid to call him because god forbid I take up any of his god damn precious time. I seriously don't think it's worth it anymore. I know I haven't heard what he has to say yet, but the longer I have to wait and I have to think about it, the less I want to speak to him ever again, let alone be friends with him or better yet be his girlfriend. I mean, he made it pretty fucking clear to me that he doesn't want a girlfriend, even though about a month or so ago he told me he did. I don't understand. What's wrong with me?
Ugh. I hung out with Danielle today. I don't know what to think. We seriously have done a shitty job of keeping in touch, and today we didn't even do any "catching up." I have really no idea what's going on in her life, other than she's obsessed with Billy (and he with her... lucky ducks?). We made plans to hang out together today on Christmas Eve, but then I called her yesterday to finalize and she asked if it would be okay if Ally came too. (Ally = 12 year old Danielle's mom used to/still? babysits) So I said that it was okay, because it's not like I was going to say no. But I don't know, that doesn't really lend to us having any in-depth conversations. So we ended up going to see a movie (also not really catching-up friendly) with Ally AND Dani's parents. And that was fine, it was fun, they treated me to pizza, and then just Dani and I went to Walmart because she needed to do some back-to-school shopping (well, it ended up being a LOT of back-to-school shopping, in my opinion). So I thought, "Okay, we'll chat while we shop." No. There was no chattage whatsoever. Not even on the car ride home really, 2 hours later. She told me a story about this girl from her high school, and that was pretty much it. She talked to me a little bit about Meridith (her other old best friend), and how they don't talk anymore, and I was just kind of, "Oh, that's weird..." But all I could think was, "We don't talk anymore either..." So blah.
What's really bothering me most right now is the fact that I haven't talked to Tom in over a week, and the last time we spoke we didn't really end on a good note. Basically it ended on him "sleeping on" whether or not he wants me to be his girlfriend (I think...) but he's been 'sleeping on it' for over a week now, and I'm kind of like what the fuck because he said something to me that is making me afraid to call him because god forbid I take up any of his god damn precious time. I seriously don't think it's worth it anymore. I know I haven't heard what he has to say yet, but the longer I have to wait and I have to think about it, the less I want to speak to him ever again, let alone be friends with him or better yet be his girlfriend. I mean, he made it pretty fucking clear to me that he doesn't want a girlfriend, even though about a month or so ago he told me he did. I don't understand. What's wrong with me?