I am a hypocrite.

[quixotic_me]

I've been home for three days, and I'm already sick of Christmas break. This is bad. I keep thinking, and honestly, I really hate Christmas. I really wish not celebrating was an option. But I feel like if you tell people you're not celebrating Christmas, they instantly jump to "oh, but it's about being with your family and blah blah blah," and clearly I'd be selfish to not celebrate. It doesn't matter that I don't believe Jesus Christ, whom the holiday is supposedly celebrating, was the son of "God." But I feel like Christmas isn't really a Christian holiday anymore anyways. My friends Mona and Mansha celebrate it - they're not Christians. In my opinion, it's a holiday dedicated to consumerism and spoiling children (i.e. me). I know I'm a spoiled brat, and I hate it, and I know I give in to consumerist ways all the time, and I hate that too, but at least I admit that I'm a hypocrite. From a religious standpoint, it doesn't even make sense to celebrate the birth of Christ by purchasing material items because if you believe in all of that crap, you can't take your material possessions with you after you die anyways, you're supposed to find happiness elsewhere in life. Also, if you're a "true" Christian, you're not supposed to lie to people, and I'm pretty sure telling your children about Santa Claus is blatant lying.

SO I'm basically just really annoyed right now. It's probably the Christmas music that's been playing in my house all day that's gotten me in a bad mood. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to spend time with my family - I can't wait to see Karen on Friday. I'm just sick of all the hype about a holiday that's a personal complete piece of shit. (The most wonderful time of the year my ass.)

EDIT: I wish I kept my word.