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i hate the drug. i hate the drink. i hate the smoke.
i hate you killing your soul.
i have come to conclusion i only show up because i'm obsessed with and addicted to something i have never experienced for myself. it scares me, therefore i must saturate myself with it. but i have decided that that is unhealthy for me and everyone around me.
i also know this: they are stupid. they are worthless, they will kill you, they will destroy that beautiful personality you own, they will make you a lonely, smelly loser, and they will make you a blithering idiot; but i must clarify: i know that for myself, and only myself. it will come to all of you whenever you want to realize that, or maybe it never will...but that doesnt matter because as i also realized last night, everyone has their own lives. everyone controls their own lives...and ultimately we will all do what we want with that life. i cannot live your lives, i cannot protect everyone from what i dont agree with, and i cannot force my values, beliefs, or ideas on everyone. i must accept the fact that i cannot control anyone but myself.
you will all do what you want, and that is the true beauty of life. because in the end, nothing really matters...and nothing will change the fact that we will die at the end of this life. so i need to shut up, and stop caring, and get myself out of this ridiculous state of mind.
i apologize, but i hate the drug you are.
i hate you killing your soul.
i have come to conclusion i only show up because i'm obsessed with and addicted to something i have never experienced for myself. it scares me, therefore i must saturate myself with it. but i have decided that that is unhealthy for me and everyone around me.
i also know this: they are stupid. they are worthless, they will kill you, they will destroy that beautiful personality you own, they will make you a lonely, smelly loser, and they will make you a blithering idiot; but i must clarify: i know that for myself, and only myself. it will come to all of you whenever you want to realize that, or maybe it never will...but that doesnt matter because as i also realized last night, everyone has their own lives. everyone controls their own lives...and ultimately we will all do what we want with that life. i cannot live your lives, i cannot protect everyone from what i dont agree with, and i cannot force my values, beliefs, or ideas on everyone. i must accept the fact that i cannot control anyone but myself.
you will all do what you want, and that is the true beauty of life. because in the end, nothing really matters...and nothing will change the fact that we will die at the end of this life. so i need to shut up, and stop caring, and get myself out of this ridiculous state of mind.
i apologize, but i hate the drug you are.