Confusion
This past week has been so confusing, and its just been a massive mix of amazing and utterly sad. My head doesn't know which way to spin.
Heres the directions to how you make a confusing week:
1. Cuddle with an amazing person while watching some of your favorite movies
2. Go to a Christmas concert with your cousin and enjoy yourself.
3. Find out that your friend was wounded severly in Iraq.
4. Have same amazing person help you through that night with some soothing words.
5. Go to the doctor to find out your back may need surgery.
6. Get invited to a cool improv concert, and get accepted for a band audition.
7. Have finals looming over you.
8. Find yourself still talking to that amazing person, who you wonder why still cares after all the depressing stuff you told her, but are just glad she does care , because its making a world of difference.
9. Have the ex who you tried getting out of your life 2 years ago start to randomly bombard you with phonecalls and IMs.
10. Spend an entire night wondering if life is going to tip in either direction. (hence confusion)
lather rinse repeat.
I think its just a funk I am having, so many things are coming at me once, that I don't know how to handle it all. Eventually, finals will pass, my ex will get the point - so I can see at least some immediate up sides to the future. That, and I am seeing that wonderful person tomorrow, and thats enough to sing and dance. If I knew how to dance...or sing for that matter...
Heres the directions to how you make a confusing week:
1. Cuddle with an amazing person while watching some of your favorite movies
2. Go to a Christmas concert with your cousin and enjoy yourself.
3. Find out that your friend was wounded severly in Iraq.
4. Have same amazing person help you through that night with some soothing words.
5. Go to the doctor to find out your back may need surgery.
6. Get invited to a cool improv concert, and get accepted for a band audition.
7. Have finals looming over you.
8. Find yourself still talking to that amazing person, who you wonder why still cares after all the depressing stuff you told her, but are just glad she does care , because its making a world of difference.
9. Have the ex who you tried getting out of your life 2 years ago start to randomly bombard you with phonecalls and IMs.
10. Spend an entire night wondering if life is going to tip in either direction. (hence confusion)
lather rinse repeat.
I think its just a funk I am having, so many things are coming at me once, that I don't know how to handle it all. Eventually, finals will pass, my ex will get the point - so I can see at least some immediate up sides to the future. That, and I am seeing that wonderful person tomorrow, and thats enough to sing and dance. If I knew how to dance...or sing for that matter...