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Life has been pretty good lately.
Recently I was tossed around on a pretty torent sea of affection. For a while my head felt like shoes newly unpacked but unable to be reassembled in the box again. It's a lot better now.
Maybe it's because I realized I am 20, and that I have a long way to go, which makes things exciting. Not knowing who I may meet, what places I may see next, or what fears I will conquer. I am done being the tree, transplanted from one lot to the next, unable to move on my own. I seem to be moving, by a will not entirely of my own, in a direction that I know is better than any I was in previosly.
It seems with this new confidence that more people gravitate towards me, which is certainly nice =). I hosted a dinner social expecting 10 guests and ended up with 20. Then just today I had a good nine or so people show up at my house to play guitar hero, eat, laugh, and play mad gab. All in all a fun time.
What's important is that even when all those people have left and I am left to be chillin my room and read a book, I never feel lonely. Why should I? There are plenty of friends to meet, girls to kiss, places to see, and wonderful things to happen tomorrow. I am not limit myself to these "be-all - to end-all" relationships, because the real one is far enough away not to worry about for now.
Anywho, it feels good to look outside at the rain, and act, like the sun is still shineing.
Night.
Recently I was tossed around on a pretty torent sea of affection. For a while my head felt like shoes newly unpacked but unable to be reassembled in the box again. It's a lot better now.
Maybe it's because I realized I am 20, and that I have a long way to go, which makes things exciting. Not knowing who I may meet, what places I may see next, or what fears I will conquer. I am done being the tree, transplanted from one lot to the next, unable to move on my own. I seem to be moving, by a will not entirely of my own, in a direction that I know is better than any I was in previosly.
It seems with this new confidence that more people gravitate towards me, which is certainly nice =). I hosted a dinner social expecting 10 guests and ended up with 20. Then just today I had a good nine or so people show up at my house to play guitar hero, eat, laugh, and play mad gab. All in all a fun time.
What's important is that even when all those people have left and I am left to be chillin my room and read a book, I never feel lonely. Why should I? There are plenty of friends to meet, girls to kiss, places to see, and wonderful things to happen tomorrow. I am not limit myself to these "be-all - to end-all" relationships, because the real one is far enough away not to worry about for now.
Anywho, it feels good to look outside at the rain, and act, like the sun is still shineing.
Night.