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transitions are so terrifying. for the last few days i have been experiencing immobilizing panic while looking on craigslist for apartments to move into. everything is just slightly too expensive, just slightly too far away from school and friends, and the second step after looking, calling the number on the ad and making an appointment to see the place, seems entirely impossible.
so i look, i email myself millions of links to places which are removed from craigslist before i re-examine them and make the phone call, because someone else beat me to it.
edit: writing this post fills me with the conviction to just stand up and call this number, though the place isn't perfect, just to make a move, to set myself in motion. i look around for the phone, and realize that my dad has it out in his office, which is disconnected from the house, a whole 1/2 a minutes walk away, and it's wet outside and i'm wearing just socks, and it's too far to go.
so i look, i email myself millions of links to places which are removed from craigslist before i re-examine them and make the phone call, because someone else beat me to it.
edit: writing this post fills me with the conviction to just stand up and call this number, though the place isn't perfect, just to make a move, to set myself in motion. i look around for the phone, and realize that my dad has it out in his office, which is disconnected from the house, a whole 1/2 a minutes walk away, and it's wet outside and i'm wearing just socks, and it's too far to go.