The double hazard
Ok guys,this is sad...
I just recently had to quit my jobatthe railroad because of heath problems.I had wanted this job for 25 years and now i have to find a new profession at least temporarily since I'm just too much of a walking hazard.(for those of you who dont know I have a seizure disorder)
I suppose the good news is that I have gotten help for my drug addiction of prescription pain pills and am now clean(I went back on methadone maintenence)so I am getting help for all of this,but am doing it on my own.I kept this shit to myself for a VERY long time because i didnt want to worry anyone,but you guys got verysuscpicious of me and why i was acting so out of character.well,im just not in good physical heath.i lost 10lbs and have alot of feelings of agravation twards people(basicaly ive just been with myother half and my freind cathy)because people do not understnd what i am dealing with.Im sick of hearing about how quitting my job was the biggest mistake i made."oh just tough it out kid!"(this was of course said by people who dont know the reasons and i just couldnt tell them)I wasnt going to tell my mom either until i had one of thease "events" in front of her.im jst embarrassed and not wanting to worry people.
Im pretty quiet about all this and i want to be left alone so badly but i cant get that because there is this guy who is a friend of my fiance.he is here every single god danmed night!while it is nice of him to cook dinner and all,the guy is f'n loud and complaines all the time.i just want one night without him.he crashes out on the couch and complaines in his sleep.
the cooking doesnt end with dinner either.he cooks all day too.one morning he made me and rob this french toast and it was so terrible i descreatly chopped it up and put it inside an old sock and threw it away.Rob and i laughed r hours!geez....when will i get some peace and quiet?My life is better than it has been in ages,bt i am jst at a point where i am so sick of people intervening and forcing their opinions down my throat.also,I cant stand NOISE!!!!!eating noise,chewing,barking dogs,stupid laghing comming from rob's freind...arhhhhhhh...i HAVE to get out of here!!!
I just recently had to quit my jobatthe railroad because of heath problems.I had wanted this job for 25 years and now i have to find a new profession at least temporarily since I'm just too much of a walking hazard.(for those of you who dont know I have a seizure disorder)
I suppose the good news is that I have gotten help for my drug addiction of prescription pain pills and am now clean(I went back on methadone maintenence)so I am getting help for all of this,but am doing it on my own.I kept this shit to myself for a VERY long time because i didnt want to worry anyone,but you guys got verysuscpicious of me and why i was acting so out of character.well,im just not in good physical heath.i lost 10lbs and have alot of feelings of agravation twards people(basicaly ive just been with myother half and my freind cathy)because people do not understnd what i am dealing with.Im sick of hearing about how quitting my job was the biggest mistake i made."oh just tough it out kid!"(this was of course said by people who dont know the reasons and i just couldnt tell them)I wasnt going to tell my mom either until i had one of thease "events" in front of her.im jst embarrassed and not wanting to worry people.
Im pretty quiet about all this and i want to be left alone so badly but i cant get that because there is this guy who is a friend of my fiance.he is here every single god danmed night!while it is nice of him to cook dinner and all,the guy is f'n loud and complaines all the time.i just want one night without him.he crashes out on the couch and complaines in his sleep.
the cooking doesnt end with dinner either.he cooks all day too.one morning he made me and rob this french toast and it was so terrible i descreatly chopped it up and put it inside an old sock and threw it away.Rob and i laughed r hours!geez....when will i get some peace and quiet?My life is better than it has been in ages,bt i am jst at a point where i am so sick of people intervening and forcing their opinions down my throat.also,I cant stand NOISE!!!!!eating noise,chewing,barking dogs,stupid laghing comming from rob's freind...arhhhhhhh...i HAVE to get out of here!!!